Jordan Mentz

Pre Chorus:
I have turned my back on you all this time and
I’ve tried to turn the tables and said it wasn’t so
I cannot remember the last time I wanted to say
I couldn’t live without you in my life

Chorus:
I see how I’ve treated you in the past and I know something isn’t right
I just want to write this song because I want you back and I am here
I cannot believe with the way I treated you; you want me to come back
I do not know why you are so good to me when I try to run away

Verse 1:
I can hear your voice calling me back
I don’t understand that after all I did to you, you are bidding me come
If I could say anything to you, I would ask for you to forgive me and I know
That you already have and I know that you love me for who I am not what I’ve done

Verse 2:
If you called me and told me that you wanted me back
I would believe you but I would still find it hard to swallow because I don’t
Understand this kind of sacrifice because it is so foreign to me that though I gave you pain
You want me back and you want me back in your arms.

Pre Chorus:
Does it really matter what the world thinks of me
Or does it only matter that I am who God is calling me to be?
I look around at this fallen world and I want to ask where you are
I cannot feel your touch from afar and I want you back in my life

Chorus:
Reveal to me a new way to see you in your majesty
Unveil to me another glimpse of the way you love me
Open my eyes so that I can see you in a world that has forgotten you
Teach me the way that I can see you amidst tough circumstances

Verse 1:
I am looking forward to the day when I’m gonna see you
I am striving to make your name great in all the world
I can see you working from the inside and I am beginning to feel a change
I am going to stop hiding so I can catch a glimpse of you in your splendor

Verse 2:
Because of the way you changed me others can see
The difference you have made in my life is unbelievable
I want others to see you in my life so that may bring honor to your name
I cannot even grasp the fact that one day I will see you

Pre Chorus:
It is because you forgave me that I can forgive myself And I know that since you forgave me I am forgiven What you did to buy me back on the hill of Calvary I ask myself the question did you die just for me

Chorus:
I have trouble forgiving things of my past because I feel so embarrassed I know you have taken my burden and offered me forgiveness I am still trying to let go of the guilt I feel on the inside I want to let go of the shame and I choose to give my burden to you

Verse 1:
I have been forgiven by the one who set me free And I no longer have to pay any of the fee because He bought me I cannot believe he chose to wrap me in his love And clothe me in his righteousness in exchange for filthy rags

Verse 2:
Is it really true that I can be a different person And have I grasped the concept that you forgave me when you died on the cross I need your strength to forgive myself but deep in my heart I know I am forgiven I can forgive myself because you’ve forgiven me for so much.

Pre Chorus:
I am longing to be beautiful to someone
But this rose I offer to you has many thorns
I know that you can make me beautiful and I know you have
Placed these thorns in my life to bring me closer to you

Chorus:
I understand that I need thorns in my life so you can refine me
And I know that each time that I am pricked you teach me something
I know I can give you my all and all my thorns I give you
I cannot believe you give me life when I pierced you with my thorns

Verse 1:
I understand that my father makes me beautiful
And this world has many thorns it tries to stick me with
I cannot believe I give you my thorns and you bless with me life
This is so unfathomable to me because I offer you my pain

Verse 2:
I know that you rose from the dead and on the cross the rose was trampled on
But something I cannot imagine is that you will bring me closer to you through thorns
I don’t know why it would take my beautiful savior to die on the cross and
I don’t want you to take away the thorns because I am understanding what it meant for

The night is cold and my heart seems just as dark at times
I want to come out into the open but I’ve got so many secrets that are hidden
To keep living a private life with a darkened sense of reality
I’ve wanted to live a life in the light of my savior,
Closing my eyes, crying myself to sleep because my secrets aren’t surprises to you

I don’t know why it feels so good to keep living my double life
Putting up a front, like a wall that protects me
In the end the only one that is hiding is me
From the light that frees me, from the son who loves me
I know that he loves me, but its hard for me to see that when I am in the dark

I have found someone who will hold me through the tough times
I long to come back like the one lost sheep gone astray
I know that God will find me, and bring me to the light
Nothing is hidden from my God, so I want to live in the light
No more using darkness to hide me, and pretending that it doesn’t matter.

Inspired by Rick Stump off the song “Daylight coming” off the Album “Mission to find me.”

Pre Chorus:
Only in America would we say that there is no one needing salvation
And only in America would we evangelize to our people and would let the world fall
How then can we read what Jesus tells us in His Holy word
Then turn around and ignore the very thing He has called us to do?

Chorus:
The harvest is ripe but the workers are few and while Christ was on the cross He was thinking of you.
God has given us His message for us to obey
And yet so many people say I’ll tell them some other day
Is this the attitude of a servant of the call who gives up His life for another and lets Jesus do it all.

Verse 1:
Who will tell the nations about what God did for them
Who will stand up for the faith even if it may cost them all they have
God is calling us as His workers to answer the call
I cannot watch this world taking yet another fall

Verse 2:
The harvest is ready but they do not know for what
People to tell them about the life transforming message the gospel of the cross
It is not our own as many think it is, but it is God working through us that brings
honor and glory to His name.

Inspired by Jesse’s post about how ripe the harvest is in Kenya.
Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.
Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.” Matt 9:37-38 (NIV)

Pre Chorus:
If I laid my life down before as an open book
And let you author every word that was written
Would my life be different than if I tried to hide
Some of my darkest secrets from the one who created me

Chorus:
I lay my life as an open book before you
I am asking for you to reveal to me the things I have hidden from you for so long
I want you to take the pen from my hand and I want to let you write your plan
Within the empty pages I need you to tell your story of your faithfulness

Verse 1:
If you gave me every word would I really write it right
Would I tremble with the pen and would it really be what you want
If I gave you the pen and let you write my life, then I would
Have nothing to worry about and I could rest in peace

Verse 2:
I lay before you my life as an empty book waiting for you to write the story
Of what you’ve done in my life, nothing I have written is worth anything in light of what you gave me on the day of salvation
If I gave you the writing quill, would I learn to trust you still or would I take the pen back and try to write my life myself?

Inspired by the song “I know You’re Calling” by Jeremy Camp on the Album “Burden Me”

Pre Chorus:
I bow down before your throne
I raise my head and touch your robe
I have been redeemed and am free
I can worship with all of me

Chorus:
My hands were clasped as if your arms were around me
Tears flowing down my face
Singing words of forgiveness, words of grace
I sang with all I had, because You are all I have

Verse 1:
When I know you are listening, everything else fades away
I don’t care how I may look to others
It’s just you and me in the throne room
I have been woven inside the womb.

Verse 2:
I worship you with all I am
You have been my strength
My feet cannot stand still because of the overwhelming joy
I don’t want to suppress it any longer

Inspired by Leeland “You’ve Stolen My heart” Dedicated to Hannah Wyatt after encouraging me to worship with my entire heart on Thursday night.

The night is cold and my heart seems just as dark at times
I want to come out into the open but I’ve got so many secrets that are hidden
To keep living a private life with a darkened sense of reality
I’ve wanted to live a life in the light of my savior,
Closing my eyes, crying myself to sleep because my secrets aren’t surprises to you

I don’t know why it feels so good to keep living my double life
Putting up a front, like a wall that protects me
In the end the only one that is hiding is me
From the light that frees me, from the son who loves me
I know that he loves me, but its hard for me to see that when I am in the dark

I have found someone who will hold me through the tough times
I long to come back like the one lost sheep gone astray
I know that God will find me, and bring me to the light
Nothing is hidden from my God, so I want to live in the light
No more using darkness to hide me, and pretending that it doesn’t matter.

Inspired by Rick Stump off the song “Daylight coming” off the Album “Mission to find me.”

Pre Chorus:
I try to discover each and every day the reason I breathe and I question the reason I’m alive
I have been searching for answers and I’ve found answers in your word and I have found a peace that I cannot explain
I am sick and tired of living for myself and I am not going to live any longer because I have found my worth in all that you are
If I discover the reason you chose to breathe life into me, would I then be able to truly live for you

Chorus:
Please continue to show me the reason I why I live
Thank you for the gift of life you give
I cannot say it enough I want to live a life of purpose
I want to start living today and I see it no other way

Verse 1:
You are the reason I breathe I want to bring glory and honor to you alone
I want my life to be a testimony of the love you have shown
I cannot imagine living a life that is dead and I am asking for you to breathe life into me again
I thank you for being there for me when I was down and out

Verse 2:
I need you remind me the reason why I live so I can give you my all
Help me remember the reason you lifted me from the fall
I know I don’t deserve another breath but you give it to me anyway
So I will live for you and trust you with today

Inspired by the song The place where I belong by MercyMe of their album Coming up to Breathe