Jordan Mentz

Pre Chorus:
I see this world falling away from the way we used to be
I cannot believe this is the state this world’s in oh Lord please help them see
That there is more to life than living for earthly possessions
I don’t know why people seem so blinded to the truth

Chorus:
My heart breaks so much to a point where I cannot go to sleep
And I am resting in your arms and I pray that tonight you sustain me
I pray that you would reveal to me your heart for the nations
So that they may see your works and glorify you

Verse 1:
My heart breaks because I cannot comprehend the end for those who have never heard
The love the father has given to us and I want to share with the world that God cares
For each and everyone of us and there is a reason that I cannot go to sleep
Because my heart breaks for the broken, dazed and confused

Verse 2:
My heart needs to break all the more when I see the people who have never heard
The more I see the lost, the more my heart breaks for the people and I can never understand
Your heart for the nations that would lead you to sacrifice your one and only son
I think to myself can I find my rest in you and do I have the joy of the Lord

Pre Chorus:
There are times when I close off my heart and let no one know what is going on
I am afraid there is pain that goes too deep for others to ever understand
I cannot believe the healing that has happened because I have opened up to others
The friendships that I’ve been blessed with I will remember to open up

Chorus:
Open up my eyes so I can share experiences with others
To be able to minister to others through what you’ve taught me
I need to open up to the one who created me, because even if I try to hide you will find it
I know that opening up may be hard at times but I believe we need to do it

Verse 1:
We can continue to hold it in and be all broken and confused and let no one inside our secret hell
When we open up and make ourselves vulnerable I believe God can provide healing
You need to use care about who you open up to and I learned a lesson the hard way
I feel each time I keep things on the inside it is another second the devil is stealing

Verse 2:
Open up my eyes Lord so I can bless people with my experiences so that you may be glorified
And help me never forget to speak openly about the one who came to died
I cannot believe the man you have created me to because I feel unworthy but I know you are worthy of so much more than what I can give

A song written because I have realized I need to open up with others and that keeping it all in will simply kill me.

Pre Chorus:
I examine my life and I look at the things that I’ve grabbed a hold of
I sometimes wonder if the things I am holding are worth letting go of
There are many things that I’ve taken hold of and I find them really hard to let go of
Holding on to things that have prevented me from growing close to you

Chorus:
I long to grab a hold of your infinite love you have for me and never let go
I want to let you hold my life as I learn to let you hold me
There are lots of things I need to let go of and I have learned that as I let you have control
One of the hardest things is letting go of everything that doesn’t bring you glory and honor

Verse 1:
You have taken a hold of my life but I find it hard to let go
It is easy to give you things that I want to give you
But it is really hard to let go of the things I’ve tried to hide from you for so long
I am beginning to see that my sinful ways are wrong and going to lead me to destruction

Verse 2:
Holding onto you is my only way of surviving this world I live in
I want to give you my entire life all I am and all my secrets I don’t know where to begin
I never will let go of you and I know you will never let me fall and slip away
I need you to grace me with your presence and I cannot believe you love me the way I am

Pre Chorus:
I have heard it said to live is to die and to die is to live
But I have given my all and I have nothing left to give
To die to myself is really a strange thing to imagine
How I can find my value when I let you crucify my sinful nature

Chorus:
I choose to die to myself so I may live for you
I understand the meaning of this upside down kingdom but it doesn’t make it easy
There are times to die and times to live but I want to die for what you lived for
Bringing glory to you with my life in everything I say or do

Verse 1:
I never know why I choose to live for the things that will kill me
And I cannot understand what it means to truly live through death
So I am asking for you to teach me what it means to crucify the old self
And teach me what is like to live free from captivity to sin

Verse 2:
I’ve messed up so many times before that I know I have so many more things that need crucified
I know that you placed me a here for a reason
I know what you want from me in order for me to follow you
There is no reason to live for myself any longer

Pre chorus:
As I look upon the cross I begin to see what my sin cost you
Because of the sacrifice you made for me I want to let you know I love you
Not because I deserve the love you offered me but because of my unworthiness
When I see the love you have for your people, I want the cross to sustain me

Chorus:
The cross has spoken so much love, mercy and grace over me I am amazed
The cross you died upon has brought healing to my life and I can see the love
I don’t know how to thank you, but I want to take up my cross each and every day
I know it will be you who rescues me and raises me from the dark and dreary tomb

Verse 1:
The cross means so much to me because it has shown me the meaning of sacrifice
The power of death has no hold on me because I have risen up with you and defeated it
At the foot of the cross is where I come and lay all my pain and burdens down
I want to see you in your glory and I want your name to be made great through out

Verse 2:
This is not about me but I want you to know that I love you
I cannot sit around and pretend the cross didn’t happen because I have seen you bleed forgiveness
I cannot see how you made such a sacrifice for me when I didn’t even know you
And I don’t know why you sent your son to die on the cross and came looking for the lost

Pre Chorus:
How many times can you say whatever it takes
I mean really stand behind what you’re saying it about
How many times have you tried before and gave up
I want to be a warrior in the battle

Chorus:
I am willing to do whatever it takes to fight for my generation
I will do whatever it takes to help my friends find the true
I just want my life them a glimpse of you
Whatever it takes to bring others the truth

Verse 1:
It is so easy to say I’ll do whatever it takes
But how many times have I backed out when things got tough
I don’t want others to remain lost because I have given up
I am willing to fight for my generation because their souls are worth it

Verse 2:
The world we live in gets tough I know
But we are engaged in a battle that goes beyond this world
I will fight for the truth even when all the rest turn and fall away
I know this generation is worth it, every tear I cry and every drop I sweat

Pre chorus:
I find myself constantly falling on my knees because I see the gift you gave me
I can never repay the sacrifice you gave for me and I could never thank you enough
Why did you create me so that you could give me such great of gift
I realize that I have only one thing to give you so I offer you it all

Chorus:
I can give you my life and everything I have this is what I have to give you
You aren’t asking me for anything more than my entire life
I give you all I am and when I give you all I’ve got I will choose to give you more
I don’t know how you loved me so unconditionally but I am thankful that you loved me anyway

Verse 1:
So many times I keep things from the light and hide them so I live in darkness
I have found the light and I want to live in the healing power of my savior
And I will give you all I am everything about me my entire being
I feel so inadequate in light of who you are but I know you love me just the way I am

Verse 2:
You gave me life when I was in my mother’s womb
And you gave me forgave me when you rose from the tomb
I cannot grasp with this finite mind of mine how you could love me because I was lost
You knew what it would take but you said it was worth the cost

Pre Chorus:
There are so many things that are running through my mind
With all these things happening around me I seem to lose my focus
I can’t remember the things that are really important and I don’t prioritize
I cannot see where I am headed in my life and I seem to lose my purpose

Chorus:
Help me remember who I am in you and who’ve called me to be
I need to remember the way I sought after you the day I first met you
Help me remember the sacrifice you made so I could live a life of freedom
Help me remember the day you set me free and how much you mean to me

Verse 1:
I need to keep you on the forefront of my mind so I won’t forget
Everything you’ve done to set me free and you did it because of your love for me
I will never forget the love you have shown me or the hand you have offered me
I can remember the first time you touched my life and I want to love you more now than ever

Verse 2:
Help never forget what there is to remember and the life you’ve called me to
I will make you first in my life because I don’t want to forget you again
I admit I have strayed away and allowed you to become so distant I’ve forgotten what you’ve done
I want to remember I need you to help me remember I am a different person because I have the truth

Pre Chorus:
This world is a scary place to live and I have been trying to escape it for so long
I try to stay inside my own little world because I am scared of what may happen
I don’t want to let anyone in on the secrets of life because I am afraid they won’t listen
So I ask myself the question am I hiding the answers I’ve found in you

Chorus:
Am I hiding from reality so I won’t hurt anymore
Am I hiding the truth because I don’t know that others will accept it
I will come out of hiding in this world of fantasy that I created
I will come out and let the world know the creator of the real world not make believe

Verse 1: I will not try to hide from the fears that have hindered me
From being the person you created me to be
I will face the fears because I have your power
I know you will cast out any spirit of fear

Verse 2:
Am I hiding because I don’t want to see the hurt
Am I hiding because I don’t want to defend the truth
Am I going to let the world fall because I am too afraid to tell them the truth
I am going to take a stand for the word of God and I will not back down

Pre Chorus:
Friendship is tender and I will do anything and everything to bring glory to God through it
I will sit in a car and let the Spirit work because anything I would’ve said would not have come out right
I have seen many friendships go up in flames because God was not the focus
So many times I wish I had been more careful and realize what God means to me

Chorus:
Friendships are a gift from the Lord and I want to be a part of as many friendships as He chooses to bless me with
I don’t know why God gave me so many friendships, but I sing because I am thankful
You never know when people will need your presence, opinion or advice but I want to be there.
Friendship is something I will protect and with Christ in the center no one can destroy
I will do whatever is needed including making myself vulnerable if it means I can grow

Verse 1:
I admit I am a sinner in need of forgiveness but I realize God forgave me
I cannot see how Christ gave His life for me so He could know me as a friend
So please Lord make me into the friend that you are and teach me to sacrifice it all
There are many times there are times I feel awkward but through the awkward times I see what you have done for me.

Verse 2:
I want my friendships to grow because I know I can’t do it on my own
I can see friendships as a gift of God to me and I want to protect them with everything
I need to find myself within your arms and I know I need your blessing on this gift you gave to me