Jordan Mentz

Pre Chorus:
I try to run away and tell you to turn the other way
Maybe I will follow you another day, but today I want to take my time and spend it
I know that you want me to come to you with my heart but sometimes I don’t want to
If I were to chase you I know that I would catch up but I want to live for you.

Chorus:
If I run away you will catch me and take my heart away from the things I put before you
I am sorry for how I treated you when you died for me on the cross , and I am beginning to realize that you loved me and I was lost and I was looking for someone to find me broken and piece me back together

Verse 1:
Running away is breaking my heart because I want to come back and
If I were to come back you would accept me and you would love me when I came home
I am tired and weary of feeling guilty and alone as if no one knows what is going on in my life so many times there are hurts I am afraid to show you

Verse 2:
If I keep the darkest things hidden from you would I be able to heal
I will let you into my deepest depths and I am begging for you to heal my heart
I tried to hide it all from you but I realized I was only hurting myself and I knew that if I gave you everything I had, I knew you would heal my wounded broken heart

Inspired by Ben Glover’s song “Running after me” off the Album “26 Letters”

Pre Chorus:
I know that the fire must burn hot in order for me to learn
Melt away the selfishness that has gripped me
The words I have to sing may they be anointed by the one who put them there
I cannot write these words if you didn’t lay them on my heart

Chorus:
Touch my lips with the coal so that I may learn
Teach me how to speak through my words and I am asking to anoint my lips
With the words that I write may they reflect your heart
When I seek after your heart I can see you showing me another glimpse of who you are

Verse 1:
Touch my pen so that I can express your heart
If I don’t say what you are laying on my mind
Sometimes I try to use words to help me unwind
And bring me to my knees where no one else sees me crying

Verse 2:
I know that you are working in my life
And these songs I write are an overflow of my heart
If I knew how to pray I would do it everyday and
I can see now how because you’ve told me through the scriptures

Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “Now, I have put my words in your mouth. Jeremiah 1:9 (NIV)

Pre Chorus:
Holding back these tears I’ve been wanting to cry all year I am hit with a shocking reality that this year is almost over
If I had something to leave behind I would have to say I want you to treasure
Every moment you are and don’t waste a second while God has you here

Chorus:
I know I need to say goodbye to everyone but I don’t know how to tell you
All how much I’m impacted by each of your lives and how my walk has grown
Now I may try to shed all the tears I’ve been trying to hold back until this moment
If I knew I would see you all again that would be encouraging

Verse 1:
God has brought me so far and I know that God did not waste this opportunity
My sister cores have really spoken life into me when I have been down
They have truly shown me what it means to be true women of God
When I didn’t know what godly friendships with the opposite gender were like

Verse 2:
The core God has placed me in has really helped me grow this year
I cannot say enough how much God has blessed me with but now I am realizing that I will have to say goodbye and it makes me want to cry, sometimes curl up and die but then I remember that my family loves me and will be there for me when I need them even when I am not here I am so thankful but it still hurts because my tears are flowing, but I see God in each and everyone of you

Pre Chorus:
There are many times when I wonder if this world has anything to offer
But as I step back from this busyness of the things this world is screaming
I want to hear you and I want your name to be made great no matter what
You have chosen me and given me a part of your plan

Chorus:
Teach me to listen for your voice and teach me to give you everything
As I wake up each morning to a brand new day may I live to praise your name
I know that you are calling me to live with a sense of purpose but so many times
I don’t let you speak to me, but I know you have a plan for my life

Verse 1:
Can I hear your voice bidding me to come
That one day I may see your kingdom come down to earth
I don’t exactly understand what your calling me to do with my life
Because I have tried to work you in with the noise of the world

Verse 2:
I cannot comprehend why you died for me but I am looking
If my king gave His life to be with me, so that I find Him not knowing exactly what I am looking for
But now I see and I want to bear the cross you bore for me, because I know that you suffered and offered all you had
You want me to come, but I have fallen again but I choose to let you help me up again

Pre Chorus:
Trying to fight back all the tears I’ve been holding back this year
I am fighting for my life, in this whirlpool of mixed emotions
I do not where I need to start fighting for what I need
My heart is weary and my eyes are stinging because of crying myself to sleep

Chorus:
I know you have a purpose for my life but I find it hard to fight when I get down
I want to fight for what you want, but myself keeps getting in my way
Do you want me to fight this fight of life because I am tired and I feel like giving up I just want to let go of myself and grab a hold of you I am gasping for air

Verse 1:
Fighting for you is not easy but I am not giving up the life you have for me
I want to fight for this vision you have given me but I am waiting on others
It is hard because I have given you my all and I have seen my walk
Become a crawl, and when I thought that it was over I begin to bawl

Verse 2:
The songs you’ve placed inside of me have hidden meaning but I know that You know what I am thinking, and you have delivered my life from bondage I want to cry because time is running out and I feel the door closing on this Opportunity you have given me because I have waited too long for this to pass

Pre Chorus:
Will I ever know how you placed the stars in the galaxy
Is it something that I will ever understand
That is a mystery that I can live with, and I want to live for you
The star that shines down on the earth

Chorus:
There is no end to the multitude of stars
My finite mind cannot comprehend
The light they give is nothing compared to the light of the Son
I don’t think that everything can be explained

Verse 1:
I see the stars and I think of your love and I look beyond to the creator
If I could see all the world would there be enough words to speak as I stand in awe
If I felt the love you felt would I be able to smile enough
I cannot see everything but that is ok with me

Verse 2:
If I had to look after each individual I think I would give up
But I know and I want you to know that I love you
I cannot say in words the way I feel about you
If I cannot say I love you would you feel the same

Inspired by the song “Stars” off the Album “Sacred Revolution” by “David Crowder Band”

Pre Chorus:
How many times have I given up on my Lord and everything He told me
I don’t know why I lost the faith that I had at the beginning
If I don’t read the Bible I will not be ready to take a stand for what is right
When I realized that You are all I need to survive this rollercoaster ride

Chorus:
I put your scripture away and I put the Bible up on a shelf
When I put your scripture away and said I would follow you some other day
I realized the mistake I made when I looked for the world to save me
I cannot believe that I gave the world a chance to crush me

Verse 1:
I know that you want me to grow in my walk with you
I am trying to put your scripture in my heart
It is really hard to live your word in my life
When I put your scripture away

Verse 2:
It hurts me to see your Bible on my shelf
I can’t look at anyone in the eye, without them seeing me cry
It hurts me so much that I may be living for myself
Then I read it again and I see the reason that you died

Inspired by “Scripture” by Apologetix off the Album “Apolo-coustix”

I wrote this song because I messed up the Africa blogspot. I realized that I did not pray the way I should’ve and I realized how faithful God was.

There are many times when I mess up and the devil tries to overwhelm me
With thoughts of condemnation, worthlessness, and a spirit of fear
Oh but I will hold onto what I know to be the truth
The mistakes in my life I choose to let you take and use them

Chorus:
So many times I worry about the affects my mistakes will have
But each time I fall down and take another step toward seeing beauty
I can see you knew the mistake even I even made it and I know you
Have always had a plan to see your name glorified through my mistakes

Verse 1:
I know that each mistake I make you will comfort me
I admit I hadn’t prayed when I made a mistake and only now I am seeing
That you are faithful even when I fall down and even when I am dying on the ground
I don’t know where I would be if you didn’t rescue from my condemnation and took it all

Verse 2:
The biggest mistake I made has been not trusting you with my worries
Not praying when I knew you would come to save me
As I fell down on my face before you, you showed me what it means to be lifted up
Out of the pit of despair and I really truly knew that care so I give you everything.

Pre Chorus:
Looking back at the things God has taught me
I cannot believe all the lessons that I’ve learned
This year is coming to an end to prepare me
For the world and what’s to come

Chorus:
This stage of life was hard but I have learned so much
There were times when I cried myself to sleep
But I know that this is preparing me for a life of new beginnings
I cannot wait to see what is to come in the future

Verse 1:
There are times that I have wondered if this place was where God wanted me
But I am beginning to realize the reason God has given me my friends
Here I can worship and seek after God with other teens my age
I learned how to break out of my self inflicted cage

Verse 2:
If I could point out the things God has shown me
The list would be a million pages long
The songs I have written have shown me so much about the character of God
I am set on fire because He has given me a passion for His name

Inspired by Ben Glover’s song “My Only Hope” off the Album “26 Letters”

Pre Chorus:
Whatever I am hungry for is what I feed and I know that this world won’t fill me up
But I admit that the world has been feeding me lies for so long that I and becoming full
I am starting to believe the lies and I find myself being the one that cries
I do not mean to feed my appetite for sin but I find myself feeding it anyway

Chorus:
The media feeds me things that will only kill me and I find myself justifying my actions based on what the world tells me
I have been hurt so many times by what this world offers me but I realize I can no longer feel what is right and wrong
This makes it really hard for me to do what is right unless I feed my appetite with things that bring me life
I choose to bring myself to the living water and I choose to feed myself with things that are of you.

Verse 1:
I am not going to feed my appetite for sin anymore because I am realizing how embarrassed I feel after I have been made a laughing stock of the world
There is only one thing that will save me and you have all the answers for the world’s questions
I will read your word and filter out all the things that aren’t of you because I know you will fulfill me and I know that you will bring me life when this world gives me death disguised as life

Verse 2:
So many times have I turned away from life and soaked in the things of the world
I will put my foot down and take a stand for what I know is right and I will wonder anymore
If there is any doubt within my mind I will not do it, and I make this declaration
I cannot live a life of condemnation because I have been forgiven for my transgressions