Jordan Mentz

I keep trying to hold on/to something that isn’t there/I long to grab a hold of you/but I can’t seem to let myself find you/I have been trying to let you have control/but I am realizing I need to rediscover you/in a brand new way/can I look for you/in every situation/so that I can trust you with everything/

Have I strayed to far/and have I tried to hard/to find something that satisfied me/apart from the one who fulfills me/a time I tell you what I’ve felt/if I knew how to put into words/the feelings I have/because I am so confused right now/if I knew what it means you’re/holding onto me and you’re never let me go/

If there has been a time/I needed to hold on to you/I need you more than ever/because I feel so hurt/by this world and all it’s lame tactics/I don’t know how to ask you/and I don’t know how to thank you/for holding onto me/even while I am trying to let go/of the things that I had held onto/

There are things that I thought meant everything/only to discover you mean more/than I have learned what it means/to hold on to you/while my grasp on this world is slipping/I gladly hold onto you/but I need to let go of the things/that have my attention/and focus my energy on the one who lives

“Tonight” off the Album “Beyond Measure” by Jeremy Camp

So many questions running through my mind/I have been searching for the answers/but coming up with more confusion/because I was asking the questions/and not caring about the answers/I tend to ignore the answers/if I don’t like them/and I want to change the answers you give me/to fit my timetable/

I don’t understand the questions/I am asking/but I am desperate for answers/because I have ignored you/for the longest time/and I am ready to accept your answers/even if I don’t fully comprehend the reason/behind your answers/but I am willing to embrace/everything you tell me/

When my life is a mess/I ask more questions/and I know I can’t have all the answers/I just need to trust you/to lead me one step at a time/it is so hard when I look up/and all I have set my sight upon/has crumbled and collapsed beneath me/all I have left to grab onto is you/you are my hope and security/

If this is how it is/in the land of milk of honey/I realize I don’t need money/because all I’ll have is you/and I will trust you to carry me/all my burdens hopes and fears/I will have no more questions/because within your smile/and within you/you give me all the answers/with a glimpse of your majesty/

If I knew how much/it cost you to love me/would I live my life any different/knowing how much my life is worth/when I am in awe of your faithfulness to me/as I see how much I mean to you/so you can be my everything/if I gave you all of me/out of my love for you/

How much could I give/how much would I give/to feel the hand of my savior/how much would I have to let go/to grab a hold of your mercy/how much can I say about your faithfulness/without making up new words to describe you/how much you mean to me/will never be able to be explained

You loved me enough to want to be with me/you have given me a gift I gladly receive/so I could be who you want me to be/I am your child/and you are my Father/and I want to get to know you/I need you to sustain me/even in my darkest hour/and carry me through my toughest trials

How much do I have left to give you/I ask you to search my heart/and see if there is any offensive way within my soul/as I seek to give you full control/I cannot give you enough/to repay you for your gift/but I want to try as hard as I can/I offer you my life/my heart and thoughts/

I want to live my life/in such a way that touches your heart/I give you my heart/and I want to give you all the praise/this is all I have to offer/I say thank you/for giving me a new beginning/I have never felt so close to you/than when I am thanking you/for everything you did for me/

If this is what touches the heart of God/I want my life to reflect the cry/of your heart Oh Lord/If you will show me what it means/to sit at your feet/with tears running down my cheeks/in awe of your splendor/and I am so thankful for you giving me your son/I cannot speak/all I can do is cry with a grateful heart/

Tears have been my food/because I am realizing what/it means to be loved by my maker/when I sit in adoration/I have taken a lot for granted/but now I realize you were behind it/I deserve nothing/but you chose to give me everything/because your blood has washed my sin away/

I cannot hide the way I feel/because my face has been a glow/with the splendor of your kindness/and I cannot give up hope/because I will not give you up/you have been mine/even when I chose to push you aside/you have made me worthy/of being your child/because I am yours/

From the moment the world was created/your breath had the life you breathed into my lungs/you chose to create me/from dust so I can know you/In the garden/Adam did not mess up your magnificient plan/you have blessed me/with a gift of life/when I made the choice to follow you/

It is in you I have found my worth/and it is in you/I have my existence/it is in you/I have found what I have been looking for/it is in you/all my doubts washed away/as I learn what it means to trust you/It is in you/I find my rest/it is in you/I am secure in your arms/

You have shown me/the meaning of true love/you’ve been there for me/when I fall on my knees/I know you don’t let me down/even when I let myself go/I can’t say it using words/what you did on the cross/or could I use my actions/as a testimony of your love/

It is in you/I find myself/encompassed in your love/laying in your arms/gazing into your eyes/that speak compassion/and the same hands that were pierced/gently holding my hand/leading me home/and your voice has become a whisper/and I pray that I can hear that/that you love me/

I want to thank you/for the love you gave me/I have so much to rejoice about/you didn’t have to love me/but you chose to love me anyway/you have given me so much/that I have to be thankful for/and I wanted to thank you for my life/and I wanted to thank you for dying to express your love for me/

The words thank you could never be enough/to give my love to you/you tell me to rejoice/and sometimes I get down and I lose hope/but you gently help me up/and I wanted to tell you thank you/I don’t seem to know the privilege/you gave me to bring you honor and praise/

I am unworthy of your love/but you bled forgiveness/and your face melts my heart/so my heart is soft/so please take this lump of clay/mold it into everything you want/I cannot give you enough to thank you/but your death has spoken healing/and you resurrected the spirit within me/

If I had all the time/that this body could muster/I just wanted to rejoice in you everything/even in my trials/when I cannot seem to find you/because I know that you didn’t have to find me/but I have so much to thank you for/but there are not enough words/to express the gratitude I have/

Inspired by Jeremy Camp “I am nothing” off the Album “Beyond Measure”

As I lay awake at night staring at the ceiling/I imagine myself in your arms/but I can’t help but ask you/why would you love me/in such a way to give your Son/you whisper me the answer/though I do not understand it/you tell me it is because you love me/and even though I don’t comprehend it/you show me love anyway/

The look in your eye/tells me the reason why/you sent your son to die/because of your compassion/your love, mercy and grace/God you show me love in ways/I don’t deserve/and you come through in situations/I don’t look for you in/I am so grateful that you love me/just the way I am/

Your eyes have shown me compassion/your hands have shown me grace/your nailed pierced body has shown me love/and I have been looking to other places/to find my worth and satisfaction/but you don’t love me any less/I want to give you everything/without holding anything back/

Your mercy has consumed me/because I realize that I am nothing without you/Lord I want to be like you/but I know each time I try/living life on my own/I cannot help myself/but I fall flat on my face/because I am beginning to understand/what it means to be a child of the king/

If you could paint a picture/what colors would you use/to shade the many shadows/if you could portray an image/of what you mean to God/would you be able to draw/a cross with Jesus bleeding love/cannot explain the love of my Father/On Calvary God gave us life/when the Romans shouted die/

Would your eyes tear up/when you had breathed your last breath/if you knew that I spit in your face/but I am thankful for this thing called grace/you have been so good/and you gave me life/when I shouted with my actions/I didn’t want anything to do with you/but you chose to love me anyway/

If you could love me/enough to die for me/would I learn what it means to be free/I cry myself to sleep/because I realize I have been accepted/a glimpse of your majesty/would make me fall to my knees/and I have seen you/in my hard times/and if you could teach me/what you want/I would listen/

If you tried to explain to me/the reason that you love me/would I begin to comprehend/I cannot believe my ears/and my actions against you/have brought me to tears/yet you still want to know me/when I am trying to run away/each time I try to come back to you/I fall away again/into my same old sin.

I have waited for so long/and you told me you needed longer/I have felt like I have hurt you/because I care so much about you/I want to show how much you mean/but I will wait/until the time is right/for both of us/and I didn’t think/not in a million years/I could wait for you to come to me/it has been so hard/because it has hurt/

I would wait even longer/if you told me that it would make me stronger/I haven’t felt this way before about anyone/and this is my heart/I want you to grow closer/to your Father/and it is worth it/to see you feel loved/by your maker/but to see you again/would mean the world to me/to see you/I see inside of you something special/

I don’t know why/I feel my heart jump every time/I wait in anticipation/all the conversations/we have late at night/as I cry myself to sleep/I cannot believe that it hurts/so bad to watch you turn away/when you told me that/you needed your space/but I will be there/when you have had your time/I have not gone anywhere

I have waited/and cried/then waited some more/because of what you said/I am willing to do whatever/I need to do/to see your face/to see a soul touched/by the Savior’s grace/to see you/if we were meant for each other/I would hold your hand/to see you again/words cannot explain/the feelings that I have words/cannot begin to describe.

I looked around/and my eyes fell upon your face/I saw a glimmer in your eye/cannot explain what it was about you/I saw a vigor in you something that was new/I could tell something was different/about the hope you possessed/I was attracted to you because of your heart/that God has given you/and you’re worth more than gold/

If I could tell you one thing/I would tell you/God loves you and wants the best/we may not see the conclusion yet/but God has been showing me/what it means to hurt/what it means to let you go/if that is what was best/when it was put to the test/I want you to know that your heart is made of gold/

Refined by the maker/molded through the fire/if I needed to give you space/I want to see God/work in your life/I realized that I hurt because I miss you/If you could be happy/away from me/I would want that/it would be worth everything/to see God work in your life/

Letting go of you is probably/the most painful thing I could endure/but if it meant you could pursue/the one who sits on the throne/I want you to find/the fulfillment of knowing the one true God/He is the only one who satisfies/God has gently told me/you need to be left alone/and it is so you can grow in Him/