Written when I was experiencing thoughts of suicide.
You have brought me through a valley/and when my eyes are opened/it is then my heart comes to life/because you let me breathe again/I feel like my heart is shattered/but you have picked me up/and I can see you healing my hurts/giving you my hand/holding nothing back/with a mask I try to hide the pain/my joy inside remains hidden/behind my mask of my insecurity/I tried to be open/and I wound up/learning to listen/to the voice inside my heart/and I didn’t know what I was feeling/because I was wrapped in my situation/ I have been falling to the bottom/and as I lay awake/wondering if I was going to be able/to open my eyes/the feelings and mixed emotions/had me wondering if I would see/another sunset and take another step/I have been falling to the bottom/and I am learning to trust in my Savior’s grace/it is then I see my redeemer’s face/I don’t know what to say/but I will trust you with my life/I cannot explain this hurt/that my past has caused me/but you have erased from memory/the darkest side of me/and I want to move on/ I cannot explain this pain/and I can’t begin to comprehend/the grace and mercy in your eyes/I know that you have forgiven every lie/I don’t understand the beauty you made/within my heart/you didn’t need me to spread your message/but you chose to create me/and with your help I am learning to live with my love/protector, provider, my everything my king/holding my life in your hand/open up my heart/so that you may resurrect my spirit/I can fly away with the wings/you gave me and I will rise up on the wings of eagles/ The pain that has hurt/for the longest time/God is teaching me to let it go/I am going to give my past/present and my future back to God/I remember the day I fell to the bottom/and the valley I thought I had consumed me/I saw the sunset/of a day full of darkness/I was hurting so I didn’t look for the sunrise/I just wanted the pain to pass/I can see clearly/that I need to/go through this valley/so I can learn to deal with my pain/I don’t know if I can endure/but I am still having doubts/but I find my peace within your eyes/