Jordan Mentz

I have trusted in the things that have hurt me
Put my hope in things that offer no fulfillment
Wandered out on my own with my heart breaking
I thought I knew what I wanted and in the process I hid from you
I didn’t mean to squander the soul you gave to me, but with my heart before you now
I want to come back, and I know it has been a long time but I know you will accept me

I tried to live life on my own and ignore the love you have shown
Eating with the pigs, yearning for the day when I was with you
I come running back running back to your grace
Within your arms of mercy you accepted the darkest part of me
You told me that you were crying for me to return home but waiting
in anticipation for the day I finally listened to your whisper

I heard a voice never audible before when I was so far away
while I was in the field wandering wanting nothing to do with my lover
You carried my life as an infant in your palm, and told me to come home forever
You accepted me again and I wanted to be your servant, yet you called me son
I accept the grace you offer to receive the mercy you have given
I offer you my hand, for you to lead me because I long to be with you my Dad.

So many things going on in my world
I sometimes forget to stop and prioritize
Life gets cluttered with things that don’t matter
In a society where nothing is free

Sometimes I betray you for thirty pieces of silver
I want to say that I’m a follower of Christ
But many times my actions betray you
And I forget what you mean to me

If I reprioritize my life help me realize
the things I have given up and the
life you gave for me on Calvary
Though I didn’t accept it, you offered it free

Your grace and mercy has bought me forgiveness
Eyes of compassion shown a love so bright
Has shown me what it means to live
A life void of darkness shining in your light

As I look around the waves remind me
of your unfailing love and your faithfulness
With each wave another moment, to rest in your arms
A cold refreshing breeze with sand between my toes
the towel on the beach with the sun shining down

Sleeping on the warm shore as my mind was constantly thinking
how my soul has been refreshed by the relaxation of my heart
It all must come to an end, but then I remember what it means to make time for you
I have been so busy, my brain gets so cluttered so easily I forget what it means to rest in your arms
I don’t understand the majestic whisper of your voice, speaking as gently as the waves

When I take a leap of faith into the lake of the unknown
Help me to trust you, to show me the next step
regardless of the past, and hopeful of the future
Keeping my focus on you, the author of my life
Help me not become distracted with the things that keep me from you

Inspired by my trip to Michigan, while laying looking over the water