Jordan Mentz

How can I be so blind, to the signals that your sending
A kinship that I thought would last forever is now quickly ending
I didn’t understand what you meant you didn’t want my compliments
But you made an impression on my heart like wet cement

A girl so sweet that it made me weep,
Kept me up at night and I couldn’t sleep
I didn’t know what I was doing I knew I would mess something up
Waiting for it to happen, when you told me it would end in a break up

I didn’t want to believe you because my heart was hurting,
You told me enough of that I can see past your pointless flirting
I didn’t want to let you go but I couldn’t get past my feelings
Now all I feel like is kneeling, asking for forgiveness and waiting for healing.

Now that I have been hurting, I can see
A life that is broken and in need of something to save me,
I had no choice, but I had to grab a hold of my Father’s hand
Someone to save me from this sinking sand.

Written after feeling extremely insecure about dressing up in girl’s clothes

There are times in this life when you’re thrown a curve ball
It is up to you whether you stand firm or fall
I know I am secure, within my savior’s arms
In his grasp nothing else should matter

So many times we get hurt by the things we choose to do,
and then we think we have every right to cast the blame on you
Yet you remain true, amidst the confusion and the anger
May you remind me that I am secure in who I am in you

But you tell me that there are times when this world will lie
and the things that seem to matter to me, make you cry
I choose not listen, because I get too comfortable living life on my own
Choose not to heed your instruction and forget the love that you’ve shown.

Still I will praise you, and even though nothing else matters and my world seems lost
I will remember who died on my behalf
even when the odds were against you you killed the fattened calf
I choose to listen and to remember who is holding my hand

When my day has been going downhill and I feel like I am slipping into the abyss
There are times I feel like Eeyore, and with each breath seems like such a waste
The moments I am down and am wearing a frown, needing some encouragement
Friends are so meaningful and offer me some comfort, when I feel like I am hiding in a basement

In a corner, shrunk up and trying to avoid being under the radar
When you come around with a smile that brightens up my rainy day
I wonder why I had been so down, but when I look at you I just got to smile
A story of my life, wishing for someone to come along and sing a song of love

Walking on the beach holding on to my friend, as we watch the waves beat upon the shore
sharing our memories with eachother, watching the sunset over the ocean
There is so much emotion, time and devotion, and it floods my mind with waves
Thankful that I am standing, strolling and talking, listening and laughing to your voice.

From the moment I first saw you,
I got a funny feeling that it wouldn’t be the last time
I tried to explain the emotion that overtook me
and came to the conclusion that it was meant to be
The moment I first saw you,
I wanted to hold you, but wanted to wait to see if you would reach out to embrace me
I couldn’t be too pushy, because I knew you needed your space

I tried to describe a feeling never before expressed in my life
A warm flood of affection overwhelmed by your bright complexion
I try to interpret the signs you try to hide within your face
Trying hard to hide the feelings of joy I have when I am with you
If the realm of time was bigger, then I may try to ascribe a meaning to these emotions
Lovin’ you, lovin’ you baby, lovin’ you, lovin’ you

I see how you look at me, when my face is vibrant because you’re with me
Can it be true, it’s just between me and you
With God as our witness, and the Lord as our guide
A life of true fulfillment, a life of true joy and commitment

Inspired by Bubbly by Colbie Caillat