Jordan Mentz

He fulfills the desires of those who fear him;
he hears their cry and saves them.
Psalms 145:19 (NIV)

Those who fear the Lord have their desires fulfilled,
so i am asking for you to teach me what it means to fear you
A holy reverence, an honor for your name
A time is coming when I ask the question do you hear my cry?

I know you do, but it is hard to see your hand amidst my life
I get so busy, and so many things are taking the place of my true love
I didn’t mean to give you the seconds, but that’s exactly what I’ve done
I took what I wanted of it, and offered you the rest, when you required the best

The desires of those who fear you will be satisfied
When they take comfort in you, and praise you for who you are
Sometimes I don’t understand, the mystery that you want to be with me
When I am lonely teach me that you’re all I need

I close my eyes, and my soul yearns to be with you
Waking up in the morning, thinking of everything that you’ve bestowed on me
The beautiful bride is waiting for the bridegroom to take her away
Can I even imagine a life where I’ll be with my lover

I yearn to be with you, but sometimes when I push you away it is then you’re drawing me close
I want to wait and I want to know what it’s like to be loved by you
If I could understand what it means to yearn for someone who loves me
I can’t see it through my clouds of mixed emotions before my eyes

I want to know the meaning of a love like yours
there are things I don’t and never will comprehend
but that is one of the things that keeps me living and praising
You in your glorious splendor, waiting for your returning.

9 My soul yearns for you in the night;
in the morning my spirit longs for you.
When your judgments come upon the earth,
the people of the world learn righteousness.

Isaiah 26:9 (NIV)

I may have times of sorrow, and I may forget what it means to smile
I look forward to the day, when you will wipe away the tears from my face
Aday when I can rejoice again, when I can be with my savior
A time with no death, because you have conquered death and it no longer has a grip on me

How can I fathom life a soul with a purpose
A love so deep and intricate, that no mind can comprehend
A time where grief will be turned to joy
A period when my tears of sadness will turn to tears of thankfulness

When I begin to examine my life, and see it from your perspective
I don’t see a mess of a human, but rather I see a beautiful creation
I see a robe around me, though I don’t quite understand the reason
All I know is that you clothe me in robes of righteousness

He will swallow up death forever. The Sovereign LORD will wipe away the tears from all faces; he will remove the disgrace of his people from all the earth.
The LORD has spoken. Isaiah 25:8 (NIV)

I wanted to step out into the real world,
Explore this life on my own knowing that I may get lost,
For you have found me, when I couldn’t see where I was
I didn’t know you were looking

The world tries to feed me the lies,
that He will never you why would you matter
I didn’t know what true love was
Till I met you and you found me

To find you, I sent out a search party left the flock behind
You were the missing sheep, but I wanted you to know I missed you
I wanted you back so I could hold you
I wanted you here beside me so I could love you

Inspired by Audio Adrenaline “Leaving ninety-nine” off the album Worldwide.

I want to sing and dance because I know who I am in Christ
Finding my life, my love, my joy, my identity in the son
I want to be your son, which I know I already am
A sinner, once living in sin, but now nothing is held against me
Redeemed by the message of the cross, seems to me that others should know this joy
If this is how it always was meant to be, then why did I waste so much living in hiding
I want to come out, of my shell and reveal my secrets to my heart

Dancing in the fields, singing while I am in the valley
I want to be your bride, dancing with the bridegroom
On the streets of gold, just you and me
No more being fake, no more being secretive
no more living a lie, but I will trust you to help me live in the truth.

Walking through this life I came to a cross roads
I saw two doors before me, and one led to me living behind a mask this door, people didn’t have to know I was hurting
The other door would open to the room of grace, but in order to enter I just had to open up my heart
The world’s view of being broken has left so many people feeling shattered, because it is the opposite of what is true
I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw others crying because I had been living the illusion I was the only one hurting
I looked around and masks were no where to be found, because the people in this room, understood that they just had to come open and willing
I took my mask off and didn’t recognize the man God created, because I had been hiding my real self for so long
It felt different, but I knew I was in the right room, because others were healing, but I was hurting still and wanted what they had
I knew I didn’t have to hide in my false reality any longer because I wanted to be stronger, so I opened up and felt true healing
Now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, a shimmer of hope in the darkness, because I didn’t have to be someone else

Inspired by John Lynch’s True Faced.

I am wounded and my sin is penetrating my soul like a bullet
Bleeding and trying to stop the pain that sin has caused me; using something that was dirty
I didn’t think I had much longer because I only had a minute before my life was altered
I didn’t want you to fix the source of my pain because it would mean you would have to reopen the wound to pour your cleansing blood upon me, on the cross bleeding, hurting, and wounded for my sake
I wanted to ask you to take the pain away but I didn’t want to listen to the answer you told me that you would help me heal.

I was shocked by your answer, once believing that my God would hurt me
I learned to cling to what was true, then I heard you tell me all I want is you
Thought I had my life figured out then it would take a deadly turn
Only to bring me to my knees and then I heard you yearn
I thought it was because you were in pain, I couldn’t even imagine that the tears you were crying were not yours but rather saw my own.

You told me that you’ll fight the fight with me. Didn’t understand the meaning of believing without seeing, when I get discouraged I hear my commander say “I am right here beside you”. I told you I had been shot and wounded, you somehow understood and felt my pain. When tears filled my eyes I saw that you were weeping, because I was hurting. You whispered words that have changed me “I love you my child” as you gently hold me. You have given me a future and forgotten what has past.

Inspired by Mark Schultz’s song Letters from war

Many times this world is telling us to go faster…we aren’t going fast enough…But when I really stop and think about how fast my life is passing…I wish that I had taken things slower…I don’t know how to balance a fast paced life…but I know that there will be comfort…if I stop to smell the roses…

A time away…A time of true reflection…A moment to see the reasons…God is working in my life…it is then I can be delivered…then I can be fufilled…it is when I realize how far He has brought me…and how far He came for me…even when I kept on running…He kept on pursuing me…

Society tells us to dish out all we can handle…and sometimes it pushes us beyond…A little more in the tank is all you need it whispers…when we know our plates are full…but yet the temptation is still there…to bite off more than we can chew…then we forget that we live our lives for you…

I wanted for someone to embrace me
to love me regardless of my past
I wanted to feel the warmth
but all I could end up finding was the cold shoulder
Can’t seem to muster the grace
Can’t seem to understand what it means to seek your face
I longed for someone who would accept me
A savior who would offer me life
Thirsty for something, drinking of filthy water
I don’t want to give my heart away,
No not yet, not to someone who would hurt me
haven’t been loved by someone before like you love me
Trying to think of something that will ease my pain away
Then you told me that my life mattered enough that it didn’t have to end that way
I thought you were crazy, and I turned my ears away not wanting the truth
But all this for nothing, because none of it was true
I was believing the lie that was whispered to me
The lie you are worthless, and you should be rejected
So I have decided to not live my life dejected because the lion is hungry
Waiting for someone who he can devour, so in my darkest hour I will choose to be free
Free of the bondage of the sin I keep in my closet

How deep would I have to go to find what I am longing for
How bad would I have to hurt to find the thing that makes me happy
How far away do I need to drift away from the rescue of my heart
How much longer do I have to search for the one who can save me

Why did I think I would go unnoticed, when you created me
Why did I think I didn’t matter, when you gave your son for me
Why did I think I had to be sad, when you told me I could find true joy
Why did I get the impression that I was drowning with no one to save me

If my world came apart and felt like it was shattered
If my life came unglued before my very eyes
If my dreams were nothing but broken
If my universe was turned completely upside down

I would choose to come to you, and let you piece my world back together
I would want you to glue my life back with your love
I would give you my dreams and ask you to change the way I think
I would give you my sin and pain, and you would exchange them with grace and love.