You know exactly what I need
You know exactly what I want
There are times when I forget
What it means to want you first

A lot of times I don’t ask
A lot of times I am afraid
So many times I try to hide
And you know the times I’ve lied

You know how I’m feeling
Even when I don’t believe you
You gently hold my hand and tell me it will be alright
You do not forget about me, but the things I confess are no more

I may feel like an unforgiven, unworthy soul but I am healing
I come before you, as a man that has been forgiven
Washed in your blood, but yet white as snow
There is freedom in your name

You know the secrets I try to keep from you
You know when I wake up my anxious thoughts
I can’t understand why you pursue me when I spit in your face
You continue to show me love, it is then I get a taste of grace
I have chased things that I have tried to replace you with
Trying to fill the void me without you and separated

Wanting to come back but feeling nothing but hurt and regret
Forgetting what you told me when you said you forgive and forget
Hidden behind a make believe persona
Thinking nobody needs to know the person who is behind it
Wanting someone who loves me beyond my inequities
Someone who wants to hold me, and loves me for me

Trying to keep you at a distance
Thinking no one could love me because of who I am
Crying to get past the hurt that keeps on coming
Trying to think of my creator but still I have questions
Running to keep up with myself and finding a road filled with healing
I give you my heart today, and want to live my life your way