Jordan Mentz

Been trying so hard…to find someone that wouldn’t break my heart again…
Crying beneath the blankets…trying to make sure I don’t get hurt again…
What can I do…When all my hope is lost…When I feel a pain much too familiar…
Holding onto what I knew…wouldn’t last for more than a while…

I am giving you my broken heart…all the shattered things of my yester-years…
Asking you to wipe away my tears…A grace so sufficient to calm my fears…
I tried to find the one…who would be there for me…
Now that I’ve found you…I know that I have everything I need to not be hurt again…

Trying to figure out the reason…that you are in charge of the changing seasons…
Not getting anywhere…but falling more in love with you…
More intrigued by the mystery…That you died to give me life…
I wanted to let someone close…I know that you are with me…

I seem to fall so many times…for girls who have just enough of me…to break my heart…
I wear my heart on my sleeve…because i didn’t want anyone to be deceived…
Now I realize that all this would be easier…if I just would’ve trusted you…
I don’t want to give up on love altogether…I just want to go through this life together…

I want to step out of the boat…but the truth be known…I am really kinda scared…
I am afraid of what will happen…if my steps were uncertain…forgetting you’ll pick me up…
So many times we think…Jesus is mad at us…when he gently guides us…
My life puts a smile on Jesus’ face…when I fall down…he lifts us to our feet…

Saddened by our choices…but willing to get back on track…he will hold my hand…
Calling us to step out on the water…amidst the stormy seas…I don’t want to stay in my boat any longer…
Knowing you will help me…if I fall down on my face…You will help me back up…
I know that by me living for you…I put a smile on my Saviors face…

As you watch your children…some just learning to walk…others at different stages…
Help me remember that I put a smile on your face…when I fall down you help me up…
I am stepping out…into the unseen reality of faith…knowing you will guide me…
Help me when I am sinking…For I know you will be there to rescue me…in my time of need…

This was inspired by Pastor Scott’s Sermon “First Steps”

Some times there is so much that seems to leave me on my face
I wanted to stand strong, and pretend that life didn’t hurt
Tears filled my eyes, and the pain seems to get underneath this calloused skin
A love so refreshing and so rewarding, my tears of sorrow
Were washed away by the hope of tomorrow

Man doesn’t need to be alone
Man wasn’t made to live emotionless
Its ok to lose control, and let God rescue you
I can’t stand the stereotype a cage of toughness
surrounding so many men’s hearts

Have you been hurting
Trying to find God in the midst
Having a savior who cried for you
Because He loved me for me
On Calvary, on that lonely tree
Teach me what it means to cry

While I was trying to be all high and mighty
putting up the front nothing was gonna phase me
because i thought that would make me more a man
Then I realized that you cried on the day Lazarus died
and you cried while upon the cross and while in Gethsemane
I didn’t realize you loved me so much that you would cry and then die.

Inspired by the song Lose control by Audio Adrenaline