Jordan Mentz

I wanted to be there only to watch you slip away
Feeling lonely alone tryin to fall asleep at night
Lately talking to you on the internet,
felt like there was someone who spoke I love you
Speaking to my heart, with a touch of healing
Trying to comprehend why I can’t sleep

You tell me that I love you
As a brother, and I tell you the same as a sister
When I cry to put my self to sleep,
You tell me that you love me and so does Jesus
Its really hard to imagine how I can forget so easily
that I am loved, not just by you, but also by my lover

Together with each word spoken
My heart was once oh so broken
Now really learning what it means to be open
A closeness of friendship, that leaves you feeling vulnerable
but in a good way, and leaving me feeling more loveable
Trying to figure out this life we live together

I chose to leave it in the open,
because I know you love me
Giving me encouragement,
about what it means to be connected
Trying so hard to say that I love you,
Sister that you see me as a brother.

I know this life is hard at times
But we are living this together
helping each other realize what it means
to trust God with everything
Sometimes I may seem a bit low
then you take me by the hand, lets look out the window.

Inspired by Stellar Kart’s song Me and Jesus.

You need to get it together, or you will be dropped like a feather
Floating in the reality, no one is safe from fatality
It seems like thoughts are flooding my mind
Trying whatever I can do, to help my me unwind
I have been writin for so long
I don’t even question the reason
There is a God behind all the seasons
I didn’t know what love was til I saw the man on the cross
Up on Golgotha, the place of the skull,
I tried to explain the fact that I’ve been on a joy ride
Come running to my savior to his arms opened wide
You say that I be trippin while I am Bible flippin,
Like the frosting on the cake,
Its your choice to make.
Who you gonna follow,
Are you gonna leave this world so hollow
I didn’t want to rap the gospel
because I thought this music be wrong
Only the the lyrics, changes I come to you with this song

I wanted to be different, I wanted to make a splash
When I am living in his word, I don’t care about whiplash
Trying to survive on the road of the life full of twists and turns
Then I open up my eyes, and my soul yearns for nonbelievers
So hard to understand why its a crime
To come up with a Christian rhyme
I wanted to tell people all around the world
Why they were livin’ with their feathers furled
Like a sparrow flies in the wind
Like a dove wanting to descend
Wings spread, I am flying high
I don’t need drugs to keep me fly
Like an eagle soars in the heavens
So will I mount up on wings, in the seventy times seven
How can you find me,
How can you see me
When your eyes be closed
And your body decomposed
I got a rhythm that is catchy to the ears
with a message that will free you from your fears
I didn’t want to stop my rap,
Didn’t want you to fall into a trap
Hows it goin’ to end,
Where’s it goin to be,
when the world will be done
Only one knows exactly when
I know him and that is all that matters

How can we expect to see with our hands over our face
Watching tv, and then I realize I need grace
So many times we go through life not showin’ no emotion
Havin’ it all put together, play it back in slow motion.
I need to show God to others, not just in my daily devotions
I want to tell them how they can be saved from demolition
Settin’ you back with your premonitions,
Trying to decipher what is true and what is wrong
Then I ask you to listen to this song
Keepin’ up with the trend, and keepin the fad
aint all they are put up to be aint all bad
Keep your focus on Christ and all will be fine
Remember his first miracle the water turned to wine

Dedicated to Karen Tuttle.

Based on Psalm 73:28
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.

Proverbs 17:17
A friend loves at all times,
and a brother is born for adversity.

So many times I want to go with the flow, regardless of my past or which way the wind blows
There are situations in our lives, that leave us questioning the reason that we are here
I rest in the promises that Jesus is always near
Can I even begin to explain, the affects of the culture on my life
Another trying time, cutting like a knife
There are many things that I can try to hide behind
But in the end, my Sovereign Lord will be all I truly find
There are many needs in the world today
There are many things that draw me away, distract me and make me turn the other way
I long to be new, I long to be true, I long to worship you in all I do.
Many obstacles that I thought would make me a better person,
In the end only leading me further down the road to sin
A friend loves at all times, and I can see Proverbs 17:17 in your life is coming alive
When I was wounded you have held my hand, when I felt my life was doing a nosedive
Hard to imagine where I would be,
If you had not spoken words of truth to me
A mentor to help me through
Reminding me what is true
I just wanted to write these words of love
to show you how blessed I am to have you sent from above.
There are things that I share
Because I know that you care
A Godly woman to speak truth in my heart,
Moving to Indy, providing a brand new start.
A time to grow, and a time to know
A time to reap whatever you sow.
Living life is never easy, but neither is walking alone by yourself
So you decided to help me, and told me to get my Bible off the shelf.
We listen to others, and are interested in other’s lives
We both serve a Savior who always forgives.

I gave you a poem…some may say that its my heart on paper…I asked you what you thought…
You tore up the piece of paper…threw it up in the air…leaving it to fall to the floor in millions of pieces…
I wanted to share some of my thoughts…my dreams and desires…with you but I found out too late…
that it wasn’t meant to be…before my paper heart fell to ground…then I knew it made no difference…
if it was me…or if it was some other girl hungry guy…you would’ve done the same…
I gave you just enough of my heart…for you to throw back in my face…

Sitting at the table…across from your family…eating the Christmas dinner…
The setting was bleak…and quiet but inside my mind was racing…
A fragile delicacy laid before me…and I knew the next time…I needed to be open…
I would think again…before I laid my heart bare before you…
I wouldn’t give the next girl…the same pieces of my puzzle…until I knew that she wanted to help me…
put the puzzle together…just me and her…with every piece revealing another stop…
on the journey along the way…just wanted to make sure…that I wouldn’t be crushed again…

My paper heart…is so vivid…but only certain people can see what its worth…
My paper heart keeps beating…as long as there are words to be written…
I wanted for the paper to be formed in to some kind of beautiful picture…
I know my master…will provide me with the pieces of my puzzle…at the exact time…
Trying so hard to hold back…the thoughts that have been welling up inside of me…
I have decided…to take another chance…knowing my creator…will never shred my paper heart…
The world may leave me dark and broken…and searching for something greater…but I know I belong to God…