Jordan Mentz

In my mind I admit I had imagined what it would be like
To spend the rest of my life alone
I didn’t want anyone to know that I was afraid to bare my heart on the phone
I wanted there to be some sort of mask to try to hide my pain and confusion

In my mind, there was pain and confusion
Trying to see past the intimate illusion that people really knew who I was on the inside
What happened to the childlike spirit that seemed to disappear at the same time I did
There are so many things I wanted to hide knowing it would be better to find a friend to
confide

I am learning to sort out the things in my mind
A lot like cleaning out my closet
I found out what is true about me
And that’s what I want others to see

There are many times I have looked for something more to make sense of this thing called humanity
I tried and tried, and in the end it realized that I was gonna have to plead insanity
Trying the same thing over and over and expecting the results to be different.

So many guys to choose from with only a few real ones
Lots of times girls fall for what they want inside the guy
Not for who he is on the inside, but because of what they want him to be
I just am a guy trying to speak the truth, there are more to guys then what you see
Knowing that guys try to hide their feelings and they don’t want girls to know
The torrent of thoughts flooding their mind like a hurricane

Wanting to find a guy who will affirm you
Wanting to feel loved for who you are
Longing to be close
Longing to be free
Guys want to provide that for you, but the truth is
God is the only one who fulfills your needs
There are guys who will grab you and sweep you off your feet
But there are some that will hold you close, and whisper that they love only you

So many times guys are fickle
Not knowing what they want
So many relationships can based on physical attraction
But is it worth the guy breaking your heart darlin
In the end is he worth the emotion, that he cant get up the nerve to tell you
I don’t mean I am perfect, just wanting to be real and write a song
to give a glimpse of what guys are thinking

This song goes out to all the girls who have been crushed by guys in the past