Jordan Mentz

I feel like bawling like a baby
Because I need so much attention
My heart is breaking when I thought that it was healing
I thought that healing was what I needed
But I didn’t know how much I had been wounded
I didn’t want to make it worse I wanted to break the curse
I feel like a baby who is crying, longing to be held
Crying for something that only he knows
My tears are flowing down my cheeks
Will anyone know, does anyone see
Or have we become too calloused to the emotions of man
I didn’t mean to let my tears reveal my fears
I want to be whole again and I don’t know what to do
Do I have to rip away the scabs that hide my deepest hurts
Revealing the wounds that have caused me to want to turn them into scars
I wanted to be different but I didn’t know what that would mean
Is it worth baring my heart, and revealing to myself what has kept me in bondage
I know the answer, but its still an ongoing battle
Daddy I need you to hold me close
Whispering to me that you love me and it will be ok
Even though I can’t see how it can be ok today
I didn’t want to doubt you, but I found myself longing for your touch
I need God to lift my face and show me his grace,
To tell me how it was to die in my place
Its so amazing but I can’t wrap my little fingers around it
Hold me close
Hold me close to your heart
I wanna hear your heart beat
With my eyes watery, and my cheeks streaming with my tears of pain,
I feel like I am drowning, in a river full of emotion
I feel like I am gasping for air,
Crying out and wondering if anyone cares.
Wanting to end my life, to make it go away
Asking myself is it worth another scar,
I wonder is it worth another day to live

I feel like bawling like a baby
Because I need so much attention
My heart is breaking when I thought that it was healing
I thought that healing was what I needed
But I didn’t know how much I had been wounded
I didn’t want to make it worse I wanted to break the curse
I feel like a baby who is crying, longing to be held
Crying for something that only he knows
My tears are flowing down my cheeks
Will anyone know, does anyone see
Or have we become too calloused to the emotions of man
I didn’t mean to let my tears reveal my fears
I want to be whole again and I don’t know what to do
Do I have to rip away the scabs that hide my deepest hurts
Revealing the wounds that have caused me to want to turn them into scars
I wanted to be different but I didn’t know what that would mean
Is it worth baring my heart, and revealing to myself what has kept me in bondage
I know the answer, but its still an ongoing battle
Daddy I need you to hold me close
Whispering to me that you love me and it will be ok
Even though I can’t see how it can be ok today
I didn’t want to doubt you, but I found myself longing for your touch
I need God to lift my face and show me his grace,
To tell me how it was to die in my place
Its so amazing but I can’t wrap my little fingers around it
Hold me close
Hold me close to your heart
I wanna hear your heart beat
With my eyes watery, and my cheeks streaming with my tears of pain,
I feel like I am drowning, in a river full of emotion
I feel like I am gasping for air,
Crying out and wondering if anyone cares.
Wanting to end my life, to make it go away
Asking myself is it worth another scar,
I wonder is it worth another day to live