Jordan Mentz

Why did you tell me that you love me
Why did you tell me that you care
Why did you say there was no one else
Why did you look at me with that fire in eyes

Why did you hurt me, forced your love upon me
Why did you wound me by saying nothing
Why did you offer to hold my heart
When all you wanted to do is leave it in millions of pieces

Why did you tell me that you wanted me
Why did you want me to be real
Why did you hide from me how you really feel
So much pain that I have to unpack

There are times when my brain is confused
Times in which my body feels used and abused
The emotions of my heart unveiled
There are times when I couldn’t even shed a tear

I sometimes feel like I am falling
I long for someone to hold me
To tell me the stories of when you turned the water into wine
Sitting on my Father’s lap
Listening to Him telling me he loves me

Why is that sometimes I feel so far away
Did I push you away, did I tell you to disappear?
I didn’t mean to do it, but you gently stroked my face
Wiped the tears from my eyes and saw through all my lies
You allow me to snuggle up and fall asleep in your arms

Dad how I long for you to tell me how much you love me
You told me about the one hill, on which you showed your love to me
Nailed up on the cross between two theives,
I tear up whenever you tell it, but I long to listen to you sing
I love you my child, and you are mine

When you feel lonely you can crawl into my lap
When you feel alone ask me and I will tell you stories
There are times when you need to cry
You can look into my eyes and I understand my child
I created you in my image, and now I will show you.

Dedicated to Molly Schwaninger