Lyrics
No Comments I sometimes wonder
I sometimes wonder why I go through the things I do
There are other times I tell myself that’s just the way it is
Why does life have to be so hard, is it just me
Why have I felt abandoned by the one who would never leave me
Have I mistaken my trust in the creator with a dependence on myself
There are so many things in this world I have yet to understand
I don’t want there to be anything between me and my creator
I don’t want my version of what is true to collide with the truth
There have been times when I have tried to figure life out
Fell flat on my face before you, and you told me that you loved me
You lifted my head told me that you wanted the best for me
How many times have I tried to live this life on my own
Forsaken grace and ignored the love that you have shown
If it was left up to me to make it by myself
I would give up, and throw in the towel
I didn’t know what it meant to love until you showed me the cross
You wanted to embrace me but I pushed your arms away
Told you that I wanted to try a different way
You didn’t want to see me run
You wanted for me to come home
I didn’t want to acknowledge the fact I am weak
I chose not let you come close and heal my heart
Then I tried to blame you for not caring
I know that it was all my fault but it was hard for me to see
I understand the reason that anyone would want to spend time with me
You told me that I was your child, and that you wanted to hold my heart
I didn’t know if I could trust you, because the world has let me down
It was then that I realized that you would never fail me
You have been my truest friend and have been there in it all
I didn’t see you because I was blinded by the things that kept me from you
I want to come back I want to learn how to crawl back into your lap
You told me it was going to be ok, but I didn’t believe you
I want to trust you, and I want to put my confidence in who you are
I know I still have a ways to go, but teach me to trust you one day at a time