Jordan Mentz

With everything that happens, and I don’t seem to understand
Not knowin’ the reason, sometimes leaves me feelin’ hopeless
Tryin’ to shake the feelin’ that I am worthless
I didn’t know what it meant to be loved
I didn’t want to embrace something I could not see
Something bigger in scheme, and somethin’ bigger than me
I knew there was something more out there
I knew that nothin’ in my life could ever compare
To the pain you took for me on Calvary

You tell me that whatever I’m goin’ through,
You’ve been there too
Even when I couldn’t see you because I was so confused
I knew exactly what you would say because you’ve been there
I didn’t know how to recognize your presence,
But you offered me saving grace and gave me your hand
If I didn’t think that you understood, you remind me You’ve been there

Tryin’ to see you through the pain that is in my life
Tryin’ to put the pieces back together; you tell me You’ve been there
Wanting something to grab a hold of when it all seemed to slip away
You tell me that you’ve been there
You tell me not to worry because You’ve been there

If there were things that I asked God for and I knew it wasn’t best
There have been times when I felt like He didn’t care
There have been times when I feel like I know what I want
So many times I ask God for things that will only hurt me
So many times I get angry because I can’t fully see
If only I could eliminate uncertainty from my life
Worryin’ about things only ties me up in knots
Tryin’ to figure out the reasons, leaves me empty inside
Searchin’ for the answers, longin’ for my home

I know that when I pray my prayers are answered
Maybe not the way I thought
My prayers are answered according to His plan
Sometimes its exactly what we ask for sometimes its something more
So next time I offer up a prayer, I’ll remember to put my trust in Him
So many different questions, even more left unspoken
But I know that my God, will be there thick or thin

Inspired by Unanswered Prayers by Garth Brooks

Lots of times I would like to tell you exactly what I’m thinking
But am too scared to mutter even a single word
I don’t say somethin’ because I am afraid you’ll judge me
There have been times when the silence has been so piercing
My ears were left ringin’ and my head was left spinnin’
We all have issues that are hard for us to talk about
We all have problems that hurt us to share
We know what it’s like bein’ hurt by someone who you thought cared

Sometimes our longing for the cure to misery, leaves us hurting more
There are times when I wish I would’ve said something
At times I wish I would’ve listened long enough to the voice in the silence
If I say something, will I be judged or is it other way around
The things left unsaid will be what haunts me in the future
Faced with a decision am I willing to take a step toward bein’ vulnerable

So many times I am scared of what others say
But could it be others are afraid because of the words I don’t
I find it hard to write sometimes, because I feel its been said before
A little inspiration goes a long way, when you embrace it
There are times when we lose our motivation
There are times when we want others to hear us but we don’t speak
People don’t like awkward silence,
but our voice is heard loudest in the quietness of our heart.

Pushing it all aside
Pushing it all away
Putting stock in the words we don’t say
Thinkin’ the gospel will be spread another day
What I don’t write, will go unwritten
What I don’t say may go unspoken
What I want to say may be misinterpreted and twisted some way
Am I willing to take the risk
Sayin what I feel and feeling what I’m saying

There are times when I can’t breathe…
There are times when I just wanna cry…
I seem to be missin’ something…
Searchin’ but never truly finding it…

I left myself when I said I didn’t care…
I left myself when I said that it’s not fair…
I didn’t know what it meant to be honest…
To let my emotions out…

Then there are times when I want to tell the world…
But feel too ashamed because of what I’ve done…
When I am honest with my creator…
It is then I find myself within Him…