Jordan Mentz

Going to walrus with all my friends
I didn’t want it to end
Sleepin’ in a room with guys who believe me
Showing me what it means to live life free
Going shopping and tryin’ to figure out the food situation
My head was spinnin’ I need a vacation
I didn’t know that you could have so much fun just talkin’ as men
Then rating girls on scales from one to ten
On a scale of 1 to ballin’ I would question the one you are callin
I didn’t know that forgiveness included pain
It drove me crazy and made me insane
If there was one thing I wish I could change
I wish my cell phone wasn’t out of range
If there was one thing I learned since I’ve been here
The Holy of Holies is drawing me near
When we share with eachother the things in the past
And can laugh about relationships that just didn’t last

Have you tried to figure out exactly what is goin’ on with the girl you like
It seems that she is so into you, but you try so hard to make it work
There are times when you feel like the guy can never win
Because if you look at her she can glare at you; get underneath your skin

Then you try other means to get her attention
Hopefully relationships aren’t all about winning her affection
Sometimes the girl can lead you on then cover it with deception
I don’t think I can ever understand it

What is going on with my mind full of emotions
I know I came out here to pour myself into the kids of Care
But with so many gorgeous women out there this is hardly fair
A longing to be special, a longing for a purpose

I know I have been resurrected by the blood of Christ
I want to give Him my all and leave the drama behind
I know love is patient and love is kind
Through the fire is how this heart is refined

Suffocating under the weight of my own emotion
I didn’t know why you had to leave heaven
I hadn’t understood the reason you sent your Son to die; you love me
As I crawl back to you, and look into your eyes

Bring me to life
It is then when my soul comes alive
It is when I am open to your calling in my life
That you bring me to life

I can barely open my eyes
Yet you see through all my lies
I have tried everything now I have no other choice than
To cry out to you, and let you heal me

Bring me to life
It is then when my soul comes alive
It is when I am open to your calling in my life
That you bring me to life

Inspired by CPR Class that I had to take for CSU Childcare.

Jesus told us to love the children
Love one another, and let the little ones come
The world told has told me that children are a burden
Another child they see as a mistake

Jesus’ heart is for the little ones, and he gave us the chance to serve them
Love overflows my heart when I think of the impact I can have
I know that I am made to love
I know that I am made to serve

I stand amazed in your presence
I fall to my knees in wonder
As I gaze at your splendor
I want to crawl into your lap

Tell me a story
You have shown me the pictures
You’ve trusted me with your children
You’ve blessed me with a heart to serve

Inspired because I am working in Kids Care

There are times when I go to bed at night thinking to myself
Could anyone ever love me regardless of my past
The times that I feel so far away
It is then you show me how close you really are
My heart is breaking because I thought I lost my love
My heart is broken because I got it all backwards
I found you when I didn’t expect you to come through
I looked for you admist all my pain
I looked for you in light of my faults
Trying hard to persevere but constantly giving up
When my love feels empty, I say the words but can’t back it up

I know my heart is safe with you
I know my heart is resting in you
So why do I so often wonder if anyone cares
Why do I wonder if I can take it much longer,
I know I am asking the wrong question because you make me stronger
You tell me that I don’t have to take life’s burdens upon myself
When I wonder if anyone is listening
You gently remind me of a place I can find true rest
Within your hands as I put my fingers where the nails were

Tears fill my eyes and I can barely let out a whimper
I know that you see me as yours
I know that you hold me and your forgiveness stretches beyond the farthest shores
I wonder if there is anymore I can do and you tell me the answer is no
Sometimes I don’t let you to hold me because I am afraid you condemn me
But you remind me that my heart is pure
My heart is white before you, washed in your blood
Though I betrayed with a kiss,
I know that you want me to come back
I know that you want to spend with me
I keep pushing your hand away, because I feel crushed but I know that it’s the world’s system that is making me feel the way I do

Trying to cast the blame on someone other than myself
Trying to throw myself out of the shadows and into the light
But finding it difficult to be real
Trying to hide the way I really feel
There is no more hiding because I know my heart is precious
I know that my heart is beating for a purpose
I am having trouble seeing it because I see so little of the picture