There are times when I go to bed at night thinking to myself
Could anyone ever love me regardless of my past
The times that I feel so far away
It is then you show me how close you really are
My heart is breaking because I thought I lost my love
My heart is broken because I got it all backwards
I found you when I didn’t expect you to come through
I looked for you admist all my pain
I looked for you in light of my faults
Trying hard to persevere but constantly giving up
When my love feels empty, I say the words but can’t back it up

I know my heart is safe with you
I know my heart is resting in you
So why do I so often wonder if anyone cares
Why do I wonder if I can take it much longer,
I know I am asking the wrong question because you make me stronger
You tell me that I don’t have to take life’s burdens upon myself
When I wonder if anyone is listening
You gently remind me of a place I can find true rest
Within your hands as I put my fingers where the nails were

Tears fill my eyes and I can barely let out a whimper
I know that you see me as yours
I know that you hold me and your forgiveness stretches beyond the farthest shores
I wonder if there is anymore I can do and you tell me the answer is no
Sometimes I don’t let you to hold me because I am afraid you condemn me
But you remind me that my heart is pure
My heart is white before you, washed in your blood
Though I betrayed with a kiss,
I know that you want me to come back
I know that you want to spend with me
I keep pushing your hand away, because I feel crushed but I know that it’s the world’s system that is making me feel the way I do

Trying to cast the blame on someone other than myself
Trying to throw myself out of the shadows and into the light
But finding it difficult to be real
Trying to hide the way I really feel
There is no more hiding because I know my heart is precious
I know that my heart is beating for a purpose
I am having trouble seeing it because I see so little of the picture