Jordan Mentz

She comes into the room and stands in the corner
Longing; wanting; hoping to be noticed
Wonderin’ if anyone would notice if she disappeared from the party scene
Darkness seemed to invade the very depths of her soul

There is hope; for you girl; there is life in feeling broken
Shattered heart and all; come as you are; come lay your heart at the cross
Light awaits you at the end of this tunnel; God will give you the strength you need
There is life for you; but you need to let your’s go; give it to Jesus; let Him have it

In the corner, where the walls come together; no need to feel trapped;
You feel like the war inside you is tearin’ your heart apart
You feel like there must be more to life than tears and suffering
You feel like the weight on your shoulders will crush you

The corner of your life you don’t want others to see
The corner of your life you don’t want to clean
The corner of your soul where you know you’ve got cobwebs
The corner of your life that has you enclosed within the lies that trap you

There is hope of being rescued
There is hope of watching the corners of your self-inflicted cage come crashing down
A place that was once dark; filled with light; a place of hurt; now a place of healing
A place that was hidden from others; a place that has been redeemed by his blood

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s Song “Who you are” off the Album ‘Light meets the Dark’

This song is sung, and recorded by my friend Cory Spears
Listen to Through Struggle, We Find Relief Mp3 I wrote the lyrics. To see the lyrics as you listen, hold down Ctrl then click on the link.
I know you’re feelin’ lonely
I know you’re feelin’ down
I know you’re feelin’ distant
I know you’re fallin’ apart

You will find me if you search for me
You will rise up on Eagle’s wings
Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you
I am close to the broken hearted

I know that you’re hurtin’
I know that you’re weak
I know that you’re cryin’
I know that you’re searchin’

You will find me if you search for me
You will rise up on Eagle’s wings
Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you
I am close to the broken hearted

Father why have you forsaken me
Stop doubting and just believe in me
He has come to set the captives free
The joy of the Lord is our strength

You will find me if you search for me
You will rise up on Eagle’s wings
Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you
I am close to the broken hearted

So many times, we try to catch the little things in life as they float away
We try so hard, and realize that all we are left with is an empty cup
Sure, while it seems we may at least capture some of the constantly fading bubbles
We soon get frustrated because we realize that the bubbles disappeared
We look for bubbles, thinking that they are what we need to fill our coffee cup
Trying to catch the bubbles seems like so much fun, but if you touch the bubbles
They quickly disappear, then more bubbles reappear in their place
So there is much excitement in watching the bubbles, but there comes a point when you realize that they are only temporary
If grown-ups understood this, how would it affect how we live?
How would it affect the things we spend time chasing?
How would it affect the things we try to put into our coffee cup?
Thinking that bubbles would fill up our coffee cups, while may seem completely logical to the mind of a child, is often times the mentality we take into other areas of our lives as well
As adults we know there are temporary things and eternal things, but yet so many times we go chasing bubbles so that we can say look how many bubbles I have in my coffee cup
There are many things that will disappear like bubbles in our coffee cup, and no matter how many bubbles we catch, they will all disappear into nothing
While running after bubbles can be fun, the same outcome is evident
You can catch all the bubbles, and be extremely happy with the constant mystery of where the bubbles are going to end up
This is the mentality many Christians in today’s world,
We know what will fill our cups (hearts) but yet we chase after the little bubbles that seem so intriguing to us, and we run after things that when we finally ‘catch’ them they will disappear
We know now that the things of this world will pass away, but the things done to advance the Kingdom will last forever.

Inspired by a little girl trying to catch bubbles in her coffee cup

So many walls around me; I thought they would protect me
So many rooms that I have created; thinkin’ to myself no one will ever see
So many places in my life where my sin hides; knowin’ that it needs to collide with truth
So many compartments, excuses, selfish ambitions, and hopeless dreams reside

At the cross; the light collides with my sin; a beautiful collision
At the cross; a dark man on the inside; as white as snow; yet covered by your blood
At the cross; a fallen man who found out what it means to let sin collide;
At the cross; you invite me to come; to be your child;

I don’t know why I live in the dark; I guess it was all I knew
Til I made the decision to bring my sin out into the light;
I lived as a child of the world; You have ransomed my life on Calvary
I am now your child; I am asking you to collide; break down these walls

I realized that the walls that I created; had trapped me on the inside
I could see out but refused to let anyone come in
I felt my sin close in around me; and it trapped my soul; You have freed me
A life of victory; a life of liberty; a life of freedom; a life of peace that you offer

I used to like to live my life in isolation;
I used to say to myself; it’s better, it’s better this way;
You have invited me to a life of community; made me a part of your family
You told me that I belong to you; as I let my sin collide with the cross

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North Off the Album “Light meets the Dark” and the song ‘Healing begins’

Lookin’ up at ceiling thinkin to myself of the day and what it held
Had I accomplished alot or was it just one of those days
The scene is quiet and the mood serene
I have a decision to make, do I let my weary mind wander; I take every thought captive
Tryin’ to remain focused on the one who gave me another breath
So many times, I forget to reflect on the things I take for granted
I choose not to praise because my life isn’t going as I wanted
I choose to ignore you because my world is already too noisy

During the night when the moon shines the brightest
During the night when my mind wants to find peace
During the night when I have time to think
During the night when I have some time to pray and write songs of praise to you
These are the times, the times that I treasure. You and me can talk together

The time has come for me to close my eyes
The time has come and my eyes are filled with tears
The time has come and my heart is exhausted
The time has come and my soul longs for everlasting life
The time has come when my Savior is the closest

If you knew how I felt about you and how you make me feel on the inside
If you knew that I wanted to be your friend and really get to know you

Would you want to get to know me
Or would you turn and run away

If you knew what was going on inside my mind
If you knew that I would be there to listen

Would your view of me be different if you knew who I was on the inside
Would your view of me be tainted by the way other boys treated you

Who would know the real you; Who would know the real me
Who could’ve guessed the outcome; if you give love a chance

Tryin’ so hard to get your attention
Realizin’ in the end I couldn’t buy your affection
Schemin’ in my mind rehearsing the words I wanted to say
Knowin’ in the back of my mind they just wouldn’t come out today
Standin’ next to you with a puzzled look upon my face
Lookin’ for the next thing to fill the empty space

There have been times when you were told you mattered to someone
There have been times when you thought that couldn’t be further from the truth
There have been times when you thought that no one would even notice if you left
There have been times when you thought that there was nothin’ more to see

You better believe that there is a God who made you
You better believe that there is a God who loves you
You better believe that in the midst of every trial he will be there to embrace you
You better believe that there is a place on this earth for you
You better believe that this life is far from over
You better believe that no matter what happens you remain His child

So many times my view of myself gets clouded
I’ve messed up so many times but your blood has covered all my being

Some day I hope that I may see myself the way you see me
Some day soon I hope that I can see others through your eyes
Some days I don’t feel like I am close to you, and you are no where to be found
Then I realize it is me that is playing hide-and-seek with you

I have no reason to hide, for you’ve called me out of hiding
I have no reason to be afraid, for you have conquered fear
I have no reason to be fearful of the end, because you have given me life
I have no reason to live in my sin, because you have given me a new heart

The way you see me is a pure and spotless lamb
The way you see me as a child, wanting to spend time with me
To tell me the story’s of old, as I sit with you by the fire
To tell me the way you love me, and are longing to be with me

In you Oh Lord do I hide my heart away
How can I hide when I know you will always find me
Tryin’ to put up a front; how I want others to see me
I don’t understand everything that you have for me

I need to trust you with every moment of my life I need to give you everything
Even when I can’t see I will keep on walkin’
By faith I will venture into the land of the unknown
Knowing that your hand will be there to guide me

In Him I live
For Him I live
In Him I find hope
In Him I find purpose

Why does it have to be so hard to find the places I have yet to show you
You already know everything, and you understand when my heart is breaking
You already conquered what I’ve hidden in my closets
You gave me joy, when I found my heart in you.

Tryin’ hard to see what lays in front of me
My eyes are clouded over because of the tears that keep on fallin
As you tell me, it’s ok to cry for something that is so much a part of you
I know you’re barely holdin’ on for life, but know that I’m holding you in my palm
I know that the waves of life have left you gasping for life
I know that the squalls that seem to sink the ship you’re on seem so big

Remember I am the one who calms my child
The calm before the storm; can be yours during
I can comfort you; but you have to let me in
I can heal you; you have to give me your life
I can see you; even when it’s dark and stormy
I’ll breathe my life into your dying lungs

You don’t have to let me in
You don’t have to let me in
But you can if you want
But you can if you want
You’ve been running; running away from peace
I am longing for you to come back home

Trying to figure out the way is much easier if you have a light
If you will let me, I will be your lifeboat; I can be your light house
I am not gonna force my way upon you; it’s your choice to open up the door
I will be waiting; all you need to do is ask
I am your father; you are my child
I want to tell you stories; I am inviting you to sit on my lap