Jordan Mentz

So many walls around me; I thought they would protect me
So many rooms that I have created; thinkin’ to myself no one will ever see
So many places in my life where my sin hides; knowin’ that it needs to collide with truth
So many compartments, excuses, selfish ambitions, and hopeless dreams reside

At the cross; the light collides with my sin; a beautiful collision
At the cross; a dark man on the inside; as white as snow; yet covered by your blood
At the cross; a fallen man who found out what it means to let sin collide;
At the cross; you invite me to come; to be your child;

I don’t know why I live in the dark; I guess it was all I knew
Til I made the decision to bring my sin out into the light;
I lived as a child of the world; You have ransomed my life on Calvary
I am now your child; I am asking you to collide; break down these walls

I realized that the walls that I created; had trapped me on the inside
I could see out but refused to let anyone come in
I felt my sin close in around me; and it trapped my soul; You have freed me
A life of victory; a life of liberty; a life of freedom; a life of peace that you offer

I used to like to live my life in isolation;
I used to say to myself; it’s better, it’s better this way;
You have invited me to a life of community; made me a part of your family
You told me that I belong to you; as I let my sin collide with the cross

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North Off the Album “Light meets the Dark” and the song ‘Healing begins’

Lookin’ up at ceiling thinkin to myself of the day and what it held
Had I accomplished alot or was it just one of those days
The scene is quiet and the mood serene
I have a decision to make, do I let my weary mind wander; I take every thought captive
Tryin’ to remain focused on the one who gave me another breath
So many times, I forget to reflect on the things I take for granted
I choose not to praise because my life isn’t going as I wanted
I choose to ignore you because my world is already too noisy

During the night when the moon shines the brightest
During the night when my mind wants to find peace
During the night when I have time to think
During the night when I have some time to pray and write songs of praise to you
These are the times, the times that I treasure. You and me can talk together

The time has come for me to close my eyes
The time has come and my eyes are filled with tears
The time has come and my heart is exhausted
The time has come and my soul longs for everlasting life
The time has come when my Savior is the closest

If you knew how I felt about you and how you make me feel on the inside
If you knew that I wanted to be your friend and really get to know you

Would you want to get to know me
Or would you turn and run away

If you knew what was going on inside my mind
If you knew that I would be there to listen

Would your view of me be different if you knew who I was on the inside
Would your view of me be tainted by the way other boys treated you

Who would know the real you; Who would know the real me
Who could’ve guessed the outcome; if you give love a chance

Tryin’ so hard to get your attention
Realizin’ in the end I couldn’t buy your affection
Schemin’ in my mind rehearsing the words I wanted to say
Knowin’ in the back of my mind they just wouldn’t come out today
Standin’ next to you with a puzzled look upon my face
Lookin’ for the next thing to fill the empty space

There have been times when you were told you mattered to someone
There have been times when you thought that couldn’t be further from the truth
There have been times when you thought that no one would even notice if you left
There have been times when you thought that there was nothin’ more to see

You better believe that there is a God who made you
You better believe that there is a God who loves you
You better believe that in the midst of every trial he will be there to embrace you
You better believe that there is a place on this earth for you
You better believe that this life is far from over
You better believe that no matter what happens you remain His child

So many times my view of myself gets clouded
I’ve messed up so many times but your blood has covered all my being

Some day I hope that I may see myself the way you see me
Some day soon I hope that I can see others through your eyes
Some days I don’t feel like I am close to you, and you are no where to be found
Then I realize it is me that is playing hide-and-seek with you

I have no reason to hide, for you’ve called me out of hiding
I have no reason to be afraid, for you have conquered fear
I have no reason to be fearful of the end, because you have given me life
I have no reason to live in my sin, because you have given me a new heart

The way you see me is a pure and spotless lamb
The way you see me as a child, wanting to spend time with me
To tell me the story’s of old, as I sit with you by the fire
To tell me the way you love me, and are longing to be with me

In you Oh Lord do I hide my heart away
How can I hide when I know you will always find me
Tryin’ to put up a front; how I want others to see me
I don’t understand everything that you have for me

I need to trust you with every moment of my life I need to give you everything
Even when I can’t see I will keep on walkin’
By faith I will venture into the land of the unknown
Knowing that your hand will be there to guide me

In Him I live
For Him I live
In Him I find hope
In Him I find purpose

Why does it have to be so hard to find the places I have yet to show you
You already know everything, and you understand when my heart is breaking
You already conquered what I’ve hidden in my closets
You gave me joy, when I found my heart in you.

Tryin’ hard to see what lays in front of me
My eyes are clouded over because of the tears that keep on fallin
As you tell me, it’s ok to cry for something that is so much a part of you
I know you’re barely holdin’ on for life, but know that I’m holding you in my palm
I know that the waves of life have left you gasping for life
I know that the squalls that seem to sink the ship you’re on seem so big

Remember I am the one who calms my child
The calm before the storm; can be yours during
I can comfort you; but you have to let me in
I can heal you; you have to give me your life
I can see you; even when it’s dark and stormy
I’ll breathe my life into your dying lungs

You don’t have to let me in
You don’t have to let me in
But you can if you want
But you can if you want
You’ve been running; running away from peace
I am longing for you to come back home

Trying to figure out the way is much easier if you have a light
If you will let me, I will be your lifeboat; I can be your light house
I am not gonna force my way upon you; it’s your choice to open up the door
I will be waiting; all you need to do is ask
I am your father; you are my child
I want to tell you stories; I am inviting you to sit on my lap

We are searchin’…
Searchin’ for somethin’ more…

We are lookin’ to the sky…
Singin’ to the one who made us cry…

I’m not gonna be modest, Cuz I’ve got a love that isn’t modest
I’m not gonna be modest, Cuz I know that his love isn’t modest

We have found him…
Found him clothed in all his splendor…

He has shown us…
Shown us how to love…

Inspired by Cory Spears

There are many times I am drawn to the things of this world
I know now that those things will only leave me wanting something more
I’ve tried to ignore the voice that is calling me away from this world
I realize now that the things of this world will only leave me with a void

Away from this world is what I hear you calling me to
Away from this world and its temporary pleasure
Away from this world you will find true peace
Away from this world you will find eternal joy

There are times when I try to grab what this world claims to offer
There are times when I realize that this heart of mine needs something more
There are other times when I think that I have it all together
And other instances where I choose to run back to the ways of this world

Away from this world is where my hope is found
Away from this world is where my heart is
Away from this world’s mentality, you have to come out on top
Away from this world’s false sense of security

Into the arms of my savior
Into the hands of my creator
Into the lap of my lover
Into the lap of my Daddy

There are times when I get tired
There are times when I am set on one thing letting nothing stop me
Then I get so busy that I have no time to listen
There are times when all I hear are incomprehenible noise

Come to me; you who are weary
Come to me; you will find rest
Come to me with your heartache
Come to me with your sorrows

I ran away from you, and turned to other things
Open my ears so that I may hear you telling me to come
Open my eyes so that I may see that you are good
You will be my fortress in times of trouble

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18

We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
Isaiah 53:6

Then the eyes of those who see will no longer be closed, and the ears of those who hear will listen.
Isaiah 32:3

Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Psalm 34:8

The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Psalm 18:2