Jordan Mentz

If I told you someone could understand everything about you
If I told you someone could comfort you in your times of pain
If I told you someone could would listen when everyone else is sleeping
If I told you someone could give you life and offer you his hand

Would you listen and believe me
Would you cry out to your maker
Would you take the time and talk to him
Would you see the world any differently

What would happen if I told you the answer to your questions is Jesus
What would happen if you just let him hold you close to himself
What would happen if you conversed with him and a had a heart to heart
What would happen if you saw others through his lens

He would be there to console you
He would be there to comfort you
He would be there to listen
He would be there to love you

Don’t run away from him
Don’t think you’re chasing him away
Don’t think that he doesn’t love you
Don’t think that anything can happen to separate you from him

Don’t you know how much you’ve hurt me
Don’t you care enough to listen
Don’t you care about anyone but yourself
Don’t you know how it feels to be abandoned

You should know that God still loves you
You should know that God will take you back
You should know that God put others first
You should know that God will never leave you or forsake you

You don’t care how your selfish actions have blinded you from truth
You don’t care how the knife you stabbed me with; your words stuck in me deep
You don’t care about how this story ends
You don’t care about the way it was poorly written

There are a lot of times that I have wanted it to end peacefully between us
There are a lot of times that I wish you didn’t hurt me; the damage has been done
There are times when I thought; how could you be so naive to what you were doing
Time after time you have been a big obstacle for my healing

You don’t know how much our words matter
You have no idea what you’ve crushed inside
You have no recollection of our conversations
You have no memory of your past

So many times I forget the meaning of the cross
To gather the sheep that were once considered lost
I mess up every day, and a lot of times I tend to shy away
From your open arms outstretched to embrace me

You tell me to come to the cross,
I stand in awe of your sacrifice for me
When will I decide to come back
You’ll still be waiting longing for me to come back home

I saw an image on Calvary’s tree on that night
I saw my heart being made new
I saw my heart being ransomed
I felt my heart had been set free

I tried to see the meaning
I tried so hard to live this life on my own
I tried to say I didn’t need you
You welcomed me into your arms outstretched

At the cross I find peace
At the cross I find healing
At the cross I offer you my life
At the cross your blood has washed me clean

At the cross you called me your child
At the cross you called me clean
At the cross you called me home
At the cross you called me son

You hold everything together within your hand
You hold every part of the universe within your palm
You allow us to see things so we may better understand you
You allow us to see things that have yet to be, through eyes of faith

So many things are yet to be discovered
So many mysteries are yet to be uncovered
So many different sides of creation
So many different sides of the spectrum

Sometimes I wonder out loud sometimes to myself
Is there really a plan for my life
There are times that I like Thomas doubt your words to me
You always take me right back to the holes in your hands

I have tasted and seen that you are good
I will rest in the peace that passes all understanding
You hold my heart; and keep it from coming undone
You hold my life and restore it from a broken state

Inspired by Louie Giglio’s Talk about a protein Molecule called Laminin

He is before all things, and in him all things hold together
Colossians 1:17

For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.
Romans 1:20

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.”
John 20:27

Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Psalm 34:8

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:7

I tend to push things aside if they get in our way
We all tend to push hands away if they try to touch us
I have trouble pushing myself out of the way when it gets in God’s way
I try to hold on to every safe guard that I’ve created because I wanted to feel safe

All my selfish desires I push aside
All my selfish pride I push aside
All my sinful practices I push aside
All the things that don’t please you; I push aside

I know that there are obstacles in my life that have kept me from you
I seem to run into them more and more each day
Rather than push them aside I use them as excuses
Rather than give you my life I seem to hide behind it

Everything that has kept me from you
Everything that has kept me from seeing you
I push it aside and run into your arms
I can see you when I look for you

There comes a time in everyone’s lives that they will need to make their own decisions
There comes a time when everyone will have to grow up, and embrace responsibility
There comes a time when the only opinion that really matters is God’s
There comes a time when you need to go against the grain

A winter season that we may see more obstacles than triumphs
More struggles of trying to stay on your feet, so you don’t fall down on your face
The times when you can see your warm breath but you can feel nothing
The times when you the only thing your eyes meet is the driving wind

There comes a time when you must make decisions, that will better you as a person
There comes a time when everything you do will be looked at under a microscope
There comes a time when advice is abundant, but you will have none of it
There comes a time when you realize the life God has called you to is unique to you

There are times that you wonder could all this stuff really be happening in the world
There are times when your heart is so overwhelmed all you see is tears
There are times when your heart is so conflicted between two former loves
You don’t know what is done, and what hurt you still have left to embrace

The times that you’re bleeding and your heart is shattered
The times that you’re wondering does anyone even care
The times that you’re so ashamed you don’t want to get up
God is going to give you strength if you let him in and give him your heart

I didn’t want to leave you alone in your room sobbing for someone better
I didn’t want for me to be the one who left you in your shattered state
Alas it was when I lost you, it finally hit me You never really loved me to begin with
Your affections were with someone who you met on the train
I should’ve listened to my heart when it told me this was over
I wanted to come back while asking myself the question how many more lovers have you left behind

It gripped me like a hand reaching out of the wall
You couldn’t see what it was that had taken me by surprise
You couldn’t see but deep inside you knew the feel of rejection gripping your soul
The fingers squeezing the life out of you and your long lost romance
The mood was then set for a double murder; the thing you held onto now turned it’s back on you

The reality hit me like a ton of bricks
The nature of the fallen that once intrigued my very soul
The ghost like figures that have risen from the closet
The scars that remain from me putting my hope in something I thought would last
There was a cloud that darkened the view I once had of freedom
All was black, and I wondered if I would ever see the truth

A grave that had been dug for you, now buried us both
Six feet underneath the surface, are you really someone else
Or are you the same person who took everything from me
Leaving me with nothing; and taking all you could

I know that you’re feelin’ lonely
I know that you’re feelin’ down
I know that you’re feelin’ distant
I know that you’re fallin’ apart

I will never forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:8)
You will rise up on Eagle’s wings (Isaiah 40:31)
Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you (Hebrews 10:22)
I am close to the broken hearted (Psalm 34:18)

I know that you’re hurtin’
I know that you’re weak
I know that you’re cryin’
I know that you’re searchin’

I will bind up your wounds (Psalm 147:3)
I will defend the cause of the weak (Psalm 82:3)
I will hear your cry (2 Samuel 22:7)
You will find me if you search for me (Isaiah 55:6)

I know you’ve felt abandoned
I know you’ve doubted
I know you’ve lived life as a captive
I know you’ve experienced pain

Father why have you forsaken me (Matthew 27:46)
Stop doubting and just believe in me (John 20:27)
He has come to set the captives free (Isaiah 42:6-8)
The joy of the Lord is our strength (Nehemiah 8:10)

I’m fallin’ apart
This life is hangin’ by a thread
Tryin’ to comprehend the reason
For your promises to me

You will not hurt me
You will sustain me
You will be there for me
You will carry me through

Do you not know there is a God who loves you
Do you not know there is a God who cares for you
There are people who try to tell you don’t matter
And there are people who try to take away everything you live for

Some of us are like bruised reeds
Some of us smoldering wicks
Some of us are fighting to stay afloat
Some of us are flickerin’ like light in the distance

Matthew 12:20
A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not quench, until he brings justice to victory.

Look around the debris wonderin’ how anything so hard could ever happen
Tryin’ to see through the dust that has covered all we ever knew
My eyes are straining to see your hand in this awful tragedy
Everything we ever had is now laying before you in ruins

I had very little to begin with now I have nothing left to offer
My ears are filled with the sounds of sirens
My soul is filled with questions
My hands; the dust that reminds me how much you love me

I offer you my heart; I ask you for your healing touch
I offer you my life; all I have left is you
I give you these relics; asking you to bring beauty from the rubble
Sand is what I have; I give you every grain

You offer me your hand in return
You offer your grace if I’ll give you my sorrow
You gave me freedom; all I saw was bondage and tyranny
My eyes are tearing up; it’s so hard to explain

The amount of devastation that disaster brings
Then I remember it’s of your love that my heart sings
You take away the pain, and offer me comfort
You place within me a peace that passes all understanding

You provide for me even if I have nothing to give you
You offer me your hand when I often turned my back
You’ve been my redeemer, and you’ve been my savior
You’re gonna bring beauty from the rubble

From the rubble we will emerge stronger
From the rubble we will become more desperate for you
From the rubble You will triumph
From the rubble You will prevail

Written after the Earthquake in Haiti 1/12/10

Written By Jordan Mentz ©2010