Jordan Mentz

Oh where has my heart gone, its been so long since I saw it
I felt it beating sometime ago, but right now it’s impossible to know
I know that it’s hiding somewhere, because I keep on breathing
I know that it’s in there, but right now I find it hard to even care
A wandering heart, a thirsty heart, a lonely heart is all that I was able to recover
I knew it looked like the one I once had, but this one was bleeding and needed love more than ever
I didn’t recognize it at first because so many things had happened, and it had been broken so many ways

I thought I knew what it looked like
I thought I knew where exactly I hid it
I thought I knew when I lost it
I thought I held the answers

You lifted up the heart that I passed
I thought I did a good job of hiding the hurt that remained
You told me you were holding it, and protecting it from more hurt
I tried to see it through your eyes, but my heart was still believing lies

Lies that I will never make it
Lies that I will never be good enough for your love
Lies that I didn’t realize I had chosen to believe
Lies that covered my perception of what was true about you

My eyes were filled with tears; fears that my heart was ruined beyond repair
My soul was filled with a sense of loss; a deep longing for something bigger
My head was busy with swimming thoughts; what if I had lost it
My body was filled with panic; the kind that comes when your about to lose it

At the cross with your arms spread you restored my heart
At the cross with your nail pierced hands you bought it
At the cross with the spear in your side you offered me your own
At the cross with the blood you redeemed me

I tried to figure it out what it meant to trust on my own
I tried to discover what the world was all about only to come to one conclusion; you’re my life
I tried to hide for so long, and I tried so hard to conceal my pain
I am done with the hiding; I am done with the pretending;

Have you ever wondered what your heart would look like with no bondage
Have you ever wondered what your heart would look like with no chains
Have you ever questioned what your heart was made for
Have you ever asked God to not only restore your heart but to heal it

Listen to Rap
to view the words of the song as you listen hold down CTRL and then click on Rap
So many places people turn to, so many
times they ask what will this do? There
are so many things in this world that have
got people singin’, but if you slow down
just to catch the cell phone ringin’
When I’ve ran out of options
get sick and tired of reading newspaper captions.
Help me understand I am the salt shaker.
When I live for you make you the center of all I do
I know you will hold me tight
so please dear Lord teach me not to fight.
When the world is shakin’ I’d best not
be fakin’, it says in your word I will not
be forsaken, for I know when the
rapture comes comes that I will be taken
You gave your son to die for me
upon the cross for all to see, when
I ask myself the question why do
my devotions, help me not listen
to my feelings and emotions and help me to always remember
you are the one who put this Earth into motion
You created the oceans, you
parted the red sea. all the while you were
thinkin’ of me. When I can not see
you grab me by the hand amidst the raging
sea. When the waves of life crush the
boat I am in I know you came to save
me from all my sins.
When my life is the pits you
will help me see where the pieces fit. When you
come back, Ya’ don’t know Jack, with
accepting You there is no turning back so
pick the Bible off your rack and
find out how you too can be
saved from death and destruction
how to survive the demolition of people
who don’t listen to the one true
source of life
When the Bible says Jesus
bought you with a price it doesn’t really
matter if you have head lice. When
the price was paid, there was no Kate Spade
the decision was made God told
Jesus the price must be paid, He died
and rose again he moved the stone from
the grave He was laid, this set up the foundation
for us to tell the nation about that Jesus
who saves
The word states it so plainly
there is one way to heaven, it also tells
us to forgive 70X7. That it is not 490
cuz if it is you’re missing the
point, Jesus is tellin’ us to forgive
unconditionally, so don’t get stuck
in the trap when He told us that
He didn’t mean literally. The
pharisees tried to trap Him
but they were shut down every
time they tried Jesus told them
just how wrong they were and there
on the spot Jesus would tell them more
I may not know how to rap
So I just put on a cap
Busy singin’ to my Lord All I want
is to be proclaiming His word. Every song
has its message good or bad does it really
matter what the lyrics say? It matters
because the message is there in your
head, song or spoken words are often
read. He died for your sins so His blood was shed
The message of the cross is a great
one that needs to be proclaimed in Jesus’ name
The lyrics of a song matter even if you say you
won’t do what they say in the song you may even
say I am that strong. Right and wrong
theres a difference What Jesus says is right
clear as day and night. You gotta live
by faith one day at a time because you don’t
know for a fact that you’ll remain intact
More saline for my contacts am I seein
this clearly this clearly this God thing is happenin’
all the time not just yearly?
When it feels Christ is all up in your grill that’s cuz He wants
you to trust His name still. Don’t steal, don’t kill, these
are two commandments he has given to us so please take a leap of faith
and learn to trust. The time is now the game is
life, this isn’t blackjack but if you don’t play your cards right, You will surely bust, trust in Jesus with all you might you will complain that you may go insane livin’ every second for selfish gain. By calling on Jesus by depending on Him, You will win in the end cuz He has already won the fight. With the end in sight, cast your yoke on Him
for His burden is light.
When Christ returns up in the
clouds, your ears may hear it cuz it’ll
be loud. When the time is right and we
need to remember it maybe 2 at night. This is not a TV show no one even
knows when Christ will come back Jack, so don’t be sacked for a loss when
the time comes you will know for a fact that it really matters now the way you act.
When Jesus comes back He will take the believers so you’d be better off not tryin’ to fake, if you don’t have Jesus you might end up in a firery lake, I tell you this cuz I realize it’s your life at stake it matters each day the choices you make
Jesus knows everything about you and me and everything we do He can see.
When we are caught in the middle wonderin’ would this be right we must always
remember He is holding us tight and every move we make is in His sight.
The world tries to tell us you’ve got to
be without sin just to get in to heaven
but Jesus is tellin’ you You just got to repent and accept
the gift that He so freely sent. I don’t need the world’s consent to tell me
How I can be me what they are missing is how to be free
You don’t need glasses to be among the masses of people
who seem to be stuck in molasses, students busy takin’ classes,
who are always askin’ for passes, the answer is Jesus so I’ll say it again.
He came to save the world from the mess it is in He came to redeem is
from this thing called sin.
The world is searchin’ let me inform of Jesus’ whole life mission,
Oh Lord please give us your vision. Jesus is on a rescue mission
but because of who He is He leaves it your decision whether to ignore Him
or let Him come into your heart for He offers a brand new start. He sees you as a
work of art, like nothing you would see in any Wal-mart. You and me are worth
more than a penny, Jesus died on the cross to buy us from sin, so if you’re on
Christ’s team you will always win.
The life Jesus offers is abundant
It is in God’s word and is fire retardant. To live forever is an offer that one can’t resist,but the choice remains yours God must exist. You may reference Him every single day, but He is calling you to use His name only when you pray. Sugar Ray won’t save the day when you wake up to a brand
new day. The way you live today matters for eternity right now and even when you’re 30.
turn gray Jesus Christ is the way He has come to save the day. He is the potter
We are His clay He is busy molding us when we do as He say.
Snoop Dogg, Vanilla Ice, Eminem all tell us in there songs to smoke big bongs
Then I look to Jesus and He says their ways are wrong, so I have written this
song void of foul language, dirty messages can not be found this song offers a fresh
new sound about this guy named Jesus who simply astounds.

Walking through this life, with the only thing to show for it; a trail of tears
With every tear that falls from your face; one step closer to feeling grace
Understanding the pain that you feel; even when it’s hard to believe anyone could
Ashamed the guilt of your past; tears are a part of the healing process

One day we will see the end of tears
One day there will be no more tears to shed
One day there will be no reason for pain
One day there will be no reason to cry

I give you my life
I give you my soul
I give you everything; I tried to hold onto; knowing that it would only hurt me
I give you every reason; for the tears that have come to my eyes

One day when the sky is open; one day when my Savior comes back
One day when the floodgates are released; we will see your face
One day we can see the cross; as a ransom for my life
One day we can let go of the pain; that is associated with sin

Trying so hard to see what lies ahead for me
Trying to make sense of everything that happens around me
I used to love the life I lived; until I finally found what it meant to lose it
I used to be looking for something; now I’ve finally found it

You broke me free
You broke me free from everything that held me back
You broke me free
You broke the chains that held me down

Now I can experience life the way it was meant to be
Now I can live a life of freedom; ever since that day that you broke me free
I thought I couldn’t see; but you’ve opened up my eyes
You took the darkness of my heart; and exposed my life to light

I am breakin’ free from the man I used to be
I am breakin’ free from the life I used to lead
I am breakin’ out of my shell
I am breakin’ out of my own self inflicted hell

Upon the cross looking at the very ones that said that we wanted you crucified
Upon the cross pleading for the Father to forgive them, for they know not what they do
You found yourself nailed between two thieves; even though you did nothing
Hard for me to realize that the gift of life is offered to me through your death

For everything that I’m afraid others will find out; you died
For the secrets of my past; you died
The darkness of my heart; you died so you could show us light
For my heart on Calvary was ransomed; you died in my place
The thoughts that haunt me; you died to break me free
I was lost; you died so you could find me

You took the pain for my mistakes; all my broken dreams
You took the beating; so you could bring me healing
You conquered death so that I may see what it means to live
Your blood paid the price for my soul

There are so many things we try to keep hidden; help us remember the freedom there is
Held captive to my own selfish desires no more; the cross the resurrection has bought me
Everything about me that I wish was different; you gently remind that you died for me just as I am
With tears rolling down my face; you extended your hand to give me grace
The scars of my Savior bring my soul healing; bring me new life

8But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us [Romans 5:8] (NIV)

A story is told with each breath that we are given
A story is told with every life that is bein’ lived

We sometimes get so caught up in writing our own story with a fairy tale ending
We forget how the story was written from the very beginning

Trying to write our own story will end it pre-maturely
Trying to figure out how it’s gonna turn out will leave us feeling empty

The story you tell is your own; a reflection of the Love that you’ve been shown
The story you tell may be different; it’s hard to see how all the pieces fit together

Only you and God can write it; Please don’t try to end it
Only you and God can tell it the way it happened; there is healing in sharing

Did you wonder if anyone would remember if you were to come back
The God who made you loves you; you can let him hold you

Shattered hearts because of broken dreams; hurting in a way that no one else knows
You’re afraid because of your past; fearful of what your future may look like

You don’t have to write the story that God has already written
You don’t have to live in fear that you won’t make it

A battle waging within my soul; wanting to do what’s right but choosing what is wrong
A war of my mind; knowing what the right thing to do is
Walls are going up around me; yet I am afraid they will crush all I am
Trapped inside a self inflected cell; longing to make it out unscathed;

Trapped inside is a sensitive heart; trying to heal
Trapped inside is a world of emotions; waiting to be expressed
Trying to figure out the real me; the one inside of me
Trying to escape; trying to break free from this cage that has me doubting

Lookin’ out at the world around me; but not allowing them to see the real me
Tryin to recognize the person that I’ve been hiding; been locked up in a closet
There are times that I just want to push through these walls; break free from bondage
I keep on marching; but the walls are closing in

There are times that I just want to curl up and cry; why is it so hard to be real
So many times I have the fear of rejection; but never putting myself out there
There is only one thing that matters; that my Savior loves me
He will knock down the walls I made; if I am open and honest with myself and Him

Trapped inside a closet; a slave to myself
Locked inside a dungeon; While Christ holds the key
I am breakin’ down; God will break these walls
I am at the end of myself; nowhere else to turn

We all want to be loved and we all need something to follow
Sometimes there are things that seem to cloud our vision of what love is
Love take my hand, and lead me to the cross
Show me what it means to give it all for love

Love take my hand; gently hold it as it holds my heart
Love I am asking you to take the lead
Love is what I am looking for; sometimes all I find is hurt
Things I thought would offer me love in return; turn out to force hurt upon me

You love me
You love me
Love take my life and make it what you want
Love may it be what you have planned

You are the definition of love Lord
You are the meaning of love my God
I ask what is the story behind love and
You tell me the story of what happened on Calvary

I was looking for something mushy; you showed me how love needed to be tough
I was looking for something to find me; you showed me that I had to lose myself
I was looking for something that would satisfy me; and you showed me it’s not about me
I was looking for something that was ordinary; and you showed me something that lasts

Have you been lookin’ for love in all the wrong places
Have you been lookin’ for love to fill the empty spaces
Have you been searchin’ for meaning of the word; tryin’ to figure out how to show it
Have your hopes been dashed; or have you given up on love altogether

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s Song “On and on” off the Album ‘Light meets the Dark’

She comes into the room and stands in the corner
Longing; wanting; hoping to be noticed
Wonderin’ if anyone would notice if she disappeared from the party scene
Darkness seemed to invade the very depths of her soul

There is hope; for you girl; there is life in feeling broken
Shattered heart and all; come as you are; come lay your heart at the cross
Light awaits you at the end of this tunnel; God will give you the strength you need
There is life for you; but you need to let your’s go; give it to Jesus; let Him have it

In the corner, where the walls come together; no need to feel trapped;
You feel like the war inside you is tearin’ your heart apart
You feel like there must be more to life than tears and suffering
You feel like the weight on your shoulders will crush you

The corner of your life you don’t want others to see
The corner of your life you don’t want to clean
The corner of your soul where you know you’ve got cobwebs
The corner of your life that has you enclosed within the lies that trap you

There is hope of being rescued
There is hope of watching the corners of your self-inflicted cage come crashing down
A place that was once dark; filled with light; a place of hurt; now a place of healing
A place that was hidden from others; a place that has been redeemed by his blood

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s Song “Who you are” off the Album ‘Light meets the Dark’

This song is sung, and recorded by my friend Cory Spears
Listen to Through Struggle, We Find Relief Mp3 I wrote the lyrics. To see the lyrics as you listen, hold down Ctrl then click on the link.
I know you’re feelin’ lonely
I know you’re feelin’ down
I know you’re feelin’ distant
I know you’re fallin’ apart

You will find me if you search for me
You will rise up on Eagle’s wings
Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you
I am close to the broken hearted

I know that you’re hurtin’
I know that you’re weak
I know that you’re cryin’
I know that you’re searchin’

You will find me if you search for me
You will rise up on Eagle’s wings
Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you
I am close to the broken hearted

Father why have you forsaken me
Stop doubting and just believe in me
He has come to set the captives free
The joy of the Lord is our strength

You will find me if you search for me
You will rise up on Eagle’s wings
Draw near to me, and I will draw near to you
I am close to the broken hearted