Jordan Mentz

Standing next to you…thinking to myself how blessed I am to have you in my life…
I didn’t want to rush it…because I didn’t want to miss it…
When you smile, I’ve got to say…it is like the sun shining down my way…
I just wanted to let you know…that my feelin’s were going to show someday…
Wanted to hide them because of fear of rejection…every time I look at you, I see God’s reflection…
How can it be…that there is a girl who is meant for me…
I keep on asking God…to make her what He wants her to be…
There is a new element of hope…that I see within your eyes…

How was I supposed to know…that everytime I see you my face glows…
I wanted to tell you what I felt…the cards I was playin’ I was dealt…
I didn’t know this joy I feel…when we share together you know my lips are sealed…
I want you to remember that when you smile…my day gets better…

Inspired by Steve Miller Band “Dance, Dance, Dance” off the album “Young hearts: Complete Hits”

Tell you what you wanna hear…I just thought my life was perfect…
Then I met you…I found out my life was different…
The person you portrayed to the world…was not the same person…
I saw when I first told you my name…I felt so distant, because you kept me away…

Tell you what you want to hear…knowing all you needed to hear…wasn’t what you wanted…
It hurts when somebody calls you a fake…I tried to tell you, for your own sake…
I saw through the lies you wanted the world to believe…I won’t tell anybody, but people will find out…
So hard to speak the truth to someone that you love…even if it means will be breaking their heart…

Can you try to be real…So you stay the same no matter how you feel…
I wanted to give myself to you…because I thought you would remain true…
Then I saw something…I realized that it was a different you…
You have broken my heart with your sin…spit in my saviors face and did it again…

Have you realized that…there is a savior that loves you…
Bled on the cross, and took the fall…risked it all and took the fall for you…
I tried to tell you but you wanted something else…you told me you wanted to live your life…
I backed up, and gave you your space…I then I came back and let you know about his saving grace…

When more people hear about Coke…Then the person who saved my life…
This is a sad statistic…You need to realize that we promote our products…
More than the one who saved the world…A world full of marketing schemes…
I didn’t want to tell you…that this is the way things are…because it hurt so much to say…

Have you imagined…a world that promotes Christ…More than it trying to spread their name…
Would this world ever be the same…If the Christians would step out and speak truth…
Instead of hearing something, and then shy away…because it is out of our comfort zone…
I want to make a stand…I want to share with the world…the love that has consumed me…

If the people are afraid to step out…of our comfort zones and love…
the same people God loves we can’t hate…they were died for too…
I think so many times…we see people and turn the other way…
When he he tells us to turn the other cheek…Why are we like the rest…

I don’t like the way the world works…because I see they are broken…
I know I can’t see the effects…of my God working in people’s hearts…
I want to take a stand…for something bigger than myself…
I want to let go and let God…give him back the things I have kept from him…

Inspired by Ajai Lall’s Sermon “Call for Extremism”, preached on 4/20/08

There he is walking by the river…its just him and his savior…
on a cold winter’s night…standing on the edge of a bridge…not wanting to end it…
Looking at the water…trying to see his own reflection…
Looking in the mirror…there he is…a man standing next to him…
I didn’t know who it was…but he placed his hand on my shoulder…
He told me that He knew me…I wanted to believe Him…but I could not remember…

Walking around my room trying to understand…the events that happened during the day…
Thinking to myself…if I really knew Him…why didn’t I recognize Him…
It had been so long…then it finally struck me…that He was my creator…
I had been lost…for so long that I forgot the feeling…astray without a master…
I laid my head down and prayed…asking him to show himself again…
Had it been a dream…that I was walking with my maker…just me and Him that night…

As I went to bed…I closed my eyes and prayed…drifting into a sub conscious state of mind…
He gently spoke to me…told me it wasn’t a dream…
That he was there all along…but I didn’t take time to notice…I wanted another chance to see him…
He touched my face and lifted my chin…looked deep into my eyes…told me that he loved me…
I asked him why he died in my place…he showed me his scars and let me put my fingers there…
He told me that he was thinking of me…when he was on the tree…that night on Calvary…

As I woke up I wanted to go walking…because I just might see him and say there he is…
I had so much to tell him…about the dream that I had…about him walking beside me…
He repeated what he told me in the dream…that he had been there all along…
I realized that He already knew…all that was on my heart…and I wanted to hear him speak…
Standing in the silence of another starry night…I thought I heard a whisper…
There he was…standing next to me…telling me that he loved me…and was with me all along…

Been trying so hard…to find someone that wouldn’t break my heart again…
Crying beneath the blankets…trying to make sure I don’t get hurt again…
What can I do…When all my hope is lost…When I feel a pain much too familiar…
Holding onto what I knew…wouldn’t last for more than a while…

I am giving you my broken heart…all the shattered things of my yester-years…
Asking you to wipe away my tears…A grace so sufficient to calm my fears…
I tried to find the one…who would be there for me…
Now that I’ve found you…I know that I have everything I need to not be hurt again…

Trying to figure out the reason…that you are in charge of the changing seasons…
Not getting anywhere…but falling more in love with you…
More intrigued by the mystery…That you died to give me life…
I wanted to let someone close…I know that you are with me…

I seem to fall so many times…for girls who have just enough of me…to break my heart…
I wear my heart on my sleeve…because i didn’t want anyone to be deceived…
Now I realize that all this would be easier…if I just would’ve trusted you…
I don’t want to give up on love altogether…I just want to go through this life together…

I want to step out of the boat…but the truth be known…I am really kinda scared…
I am afraid of what will happen…if my steps were uncertain…forgetting you’ll pick me up…
So many times we think…Jesus is mad at us…when he gently guides us…
My life puts a smile on Jesus’ face…when I fall down…he lifts us to our feet…

Saddened by our choices…but willing to get back on track…he will hold my hand…
Calling us to step out on the water…amidst the stormy seas…I don’t want to stay in my boat any longer…
Knowing you will help me…if I fall down on my face…You will help me back up…
I know that by me living for you…I put a smile on my Saviors face…

As you watch your children…some just learning to walk…others at different stages…
Help me remember that I put a smile on your face…when I fall down you help me up…
I am stepping out…into the unseen reality of faith…knowing you will guide me…
Help me when I am sinking…For I know you will be there to rescue me…in my time of need…

This was inspired by Pastor Scott’s Sermon “First Steps”

When we first got together…I thought you said that you loved me…
There is nothing in your actions…that lead me to believe the truth in those words…
No not now…things aren’t as they used to be…something changed and it really hurts…
You told me that you loved me…then I realized that I wasn’t the only one…you said that to…

Trying to get back…the time that I wasted…the signs upon which your face was pasted…
As a phony…and as a cheat…I’ll say that you were marchin’ to a different beat…
For when I saw you…with him for the first time…I knew there was someone else…
Entering into your life…you chose to open the door…for a life of pain and regret…

Locked alone in a room with some other man…No one will ever have to know…
But now that I have found you…the real you…I realized that I didn’t want to be with you…
I didn’t want it to end…but you were telling me that I never wanted it to begin…
I didn’t know how to tell you…I had no idea it was me against you and your significant ex…

Inspired by a conversation I had with Cory

Trying to piece back a life…that I thought you completed…
only to find out you took all the pieces…that I gave you and mixed them all up…
A simple apology would’ve done…looking at the horizon…just another wave…
My heart is like an ocean of emotion…and with you it just washes away…

The memories we had together…seem as cold as the ice inside of your heart…
Sometimes people give you the cold shoulder…and something tells me inside you’re colder…
Didn’t want it to end this way…but you gave me no choice…
Standing shivering looking at the waves…wanting something to be different…

If you knew the feelings I had of you…All the sudden they all washed away…
Standing alone on the beach…thinking of what could’ve been…now standing alone…
A shattered life…another relationship to learn from…Then I ask was it worth it…
What I wanted to become a fairy tale…has become my worst night mare…

Inspired by a conversation Cory and I had, about writing to what was popular.

Trying to fit everything…into my world of make-believe…
Nothing to show for…without having it all in place…
It would seem to me…that my worries would be over…
If I could make it all up…trying to hide within my own little reality…
Faster than a bullet…penetrating my little secret…I can’t remain in make-believe…
When reality strikes me…it feels like a ton of bricks…waking me up from a fairy-tale dream…
trying to wish it all away…just trying to find another way to cope…

Sleeping soundly…in my father’s arms…the only thing I feel…
Is the warmth of my savior’s hands…as I rest and think about…
The time when nothing else matters…In a world so amazing…
You can try to imagine a life without pain…but it would be make believe…on this side of eternity…

Make believe my heart is breaking…make believe I could make it better on my own…
Trying to get things…done on my own…falling on my face…you gently bring me to my knees…
I want something…more than this world has to offer…
Trying to break out of my little…land of make-believe…when will I realize…
Making things up doesn’t make them come to pass…but I knew better than to bring others in…
My make-believe world is falling apart…because I am missing the one true Creator…
Faith in my maker to make things come to pass…there have been so many times…
I wanted to be in control of my own life…and when I worried…
I was living in the illusion…that I was in control…

Many times this world is telling us to go faster…we aren’t going fast enough…But when I really stop and think about how fast my life is passing…I wish that I had taken things slower…I don’t know how to balance a fast paced life…but I know that there will be comfort…if I stop to smell the roses…

A time away…A time of true reflection…A moment to see the reasons…God is working in my life…it is then I can be delivered…then I can be fufilled…it is when I realize how far He has brought me…and how far He came for me…even when I kept on running…He kept on pursuing me…

Society tells us to dish out all we can handle…and sometimes it pushes us beyond…A little more in the tank is all you need it whispers…when we know our plates are full…but yet the temptation is still there…to bite off more than we can chew…then we forget that we live our lives for you…