Jordan Mentz

Pre chorus:
When I look into your eyes
I see peace I see love
Your eyes reflect your heart
The light in your eyes has let me see

Chorus:
I gaze into the eyes of the one created me
I am blown away by the fire that burns for your people
I see your love because you have shown me what love is
There is so much love in your eyes and it sees through all my lies

Verse 1:
Into your eyes I look and I see the love behind the cross
I fix my eyes on what your word says
And I refuse to settle for anything less
There are many times when I want to give up

Verse 2:
You wouldn’t let me sell myself short
And everything I wanted before seems meaningless
I met you now my life has turned around
I long to hear you even when you don’t make a sound

Prechorus: When my journey through life seems to get stagnant I feel life is a mountian and I feel like I am slipping I keep on trying to move forward but my steps are taking me nowhere Then it is time to ask God what He wants to remove

Chorus: I feel like I am backsliding into the same old stuff I did Before I met Jesus I had felt no other way Now that I know what I progress feels like may I never backslide into my selfish nature help me come back to you Lord

Verse 1: Backsliding when my life was a landslide Not trying to run to the arms open wide Running the race with sin in my heart When there is a God who will give fresh starts

Verse 2: Jesus told me in the Bible that I must never look back after I accept the calling I need to pick up my cross to follow Him, die to myself daily, no matter how hard I try to keep my head on straight I always come up short

Pre chorus:
I lived my life thinking it was all about possesions
Now that I have met the one my magnificient obsession
I have felt on top of my world
Only to realize I need to be less so you can be more

Chorus:
I am only a mere man on this earth
Yet you loved me enough to die for me
You taught me to die so you could teach me to live
I look at the stars you created and I worship you

Verse 1:
At the foot of the cross I see you nailed
You want me to know your love has never failed
When I look at your beauty and see your splendor
There are many times I wonder why you are mindful of me

Verse 2:
You told me that you loved me
You took it one step further on Calvary
You showed me what it means to be a servant
In a land that only wants to be served

Pre Chorus:
In my life Lord may I praise you
Everything that you have planned for me
May it come to pass even when I don’t understand
I am so thankful for what you did

Chorus:
I want to live for you and that means dying to myself
May I worship you with my heart and my actions
I will never forget your grace and mercy
King of my life, I worship you.

Verse 1:
When I look around help me to trust you
As I see a new aspect of your love
Help me fall deeper in love with you
You are my portion and my own

Verse 2:
I long to worship you with every breath
I can see your hand in my life
I don’t always understand the things I go through
But I know it is what is best

Pre Chorus:
Sometimes I feel like
I am losing the battle
My emotions seem to take control and so many times
I cannot explain exactly how I feel

Chorus:
Always changing I cannot live by the way I feel
I have been on a rollercoaster jarred around
And when I think I am altogether my feelings take another turn
I feel like crying at times I feel like I’m dying

Verse 1:
Feel on top of the world one day and everything seems bright and hopeful
The next day brings me to the valley
I don’t know where I am
I feel hopeless and confused

Verse 2:
I let my feelings define me, instead of the other way around
All tangled, mixed up and they seem like one big blur in my mind

Verse 3:
Sometimes I get emotional and cry myself to sleep
Other days I feel calloused and I won’t even crack a smile
Sometimes I feel lonely and upset
Other times I feel jealous of my friends who have someone to hold their hand at night
I don’t understand the words that go through the grapevine
By the time it gets back to me, I forget the version of the story.

Pre chorus:
As I looked around my heart had been searching
To fill this emptiness that I had felt for so long
As I lay broken I know I am unworthy but you accepted my sacrifice
Not because it was so much but because you chose to love me

Chorus:
You’re telling me to look into your eyes as you gently hold me
Looking into your eyes I am overwhelmed with love and compassion
As I find my worth in you, I can see a whole new glimpse of you
I didn’t think such a thing could exist but as I look into your eyes you hear my cries

Verse 1:
I am so thankful that my God would let me eat with Him
Experience the emotions that my Lord has gone through
To place within me the love and the joy you have for me
As my Father I feel your hand gently touch my face

Verse 2:
Cannot believe what you did for me to set me free
But I am forever grateful for what you did on Calvary
Even when my life doesn’t reflect it you gently bring me back
Unto your side because I am your child

Pre Chorus:
Holding back these tears I’ve been wanting to cry all year I am hit with a shocking reality that this year is almost over
If I had something to leave behind I would have to say I want you to treasure
Every moment you are and don’t waste a second while God has you here

Chorus:
I know I need to say goodbye to everyone but I don’t know how to tell you
All how much I’m impacted by each of your lives and how my walk has grown
Now I may try to shed all the tears I’ve been trying to hold back until this moment
If I knew I would see you all again that would be encouraging

Verse 1:
God has brought me so far and I know that God did not waste this opportunity
My sister cores have really spoken life into me when I have been down
They have truly shown me what it means to be true women of God
When I didn’t know what godly friendships with the opposite gender were like

Verse 2:
The core God has placed me in has really helped me grow this year
I cannot say enough how much God has blessed me with but now I am realizing that I will have to say goodbye and it makes me want to cry, sometimes curl up and die but then I remember that my family loves me and will be there for me when I need them even when I am not here I am so thankful but it still hurts because my tears are flowing, but I see God in each and everyone of you

Pre Chorus:
There are many times when I wonder if this world has anything to offer
But as I step back from this busyness of the things this world is screaming
I want to hear you and I want your name to be made great no matter what
You have chosen me and given me a part of your plan

Chorus:
Teach me to listen for your voice and teach me to give you everything
As I wake up each morning to a brand new day may I live to praise your name
I know that you are calling me to live with a sense of purpose but so many times
I don’t let you speak to me, but I know you have a plan for my life

Verse 1:
Can I hear your voice bidding me to come
That one day I may see your kingdom come down to earth
I don’t exactly understand what your calling me to do with my life
Because I have tried to work you in with the noise of the world

Verse 2:
I cannot comprehend why you died for me but I am looking
If my king gave His life to be with me, so that I find Him not knowing exactly what I am looking for
But now I see and I want to bear the cross you bore for me, because I know that you suffered and offered all you had
You want me to come, but I have fallen again but I choose to let you help me up again

Pre Chorus:
Trying to fight back all the tears I’ve been holding back this year
I am fighting for my life, in this whirlpool of mixed emotions
I do not where I need to start fighting for what I need
My heart is weary and my eyes are stinging because of crying myself to sleep

Chorus:
I know you have a purpose for my life but I find it hard to fight when I get down
I want to fight for what you want, but myself keeps getting in my way
Do you want me to fight this fight of life because I am tired and I feel like giving up I just want to let go of myself and grab a hold of you I am gasping for air

Verse 1:
Fighting for you is not easy but I am not giving up the life you have for me
I want to fight for this vision you have given me but I am waiting on others
It is hard because I have given you my all and I have seen my walk
Become a crawl, and when I thought that it was over I begin to bawl

Verse 2:
The songs you’ve placed inside of me have hidden meaning but I know that You know what I am thinking, and you have delivered my life from bondage I want to cry because time is running out and I feel the door closing on this Opportunity you have given me because I have waited too long for this to pass

Pre Chorus:
How many times have I given up on my Lord and everything He told me
I don’t know why I lost the faith that I had at the beginning
If I don’t read the Bible I will not be ready to take a stand for what is right
When I realized that You are all I need to survive this rollercoaster ride

Chorus:
I put your scripture away and I put the Bible up on a shelf
When I put your scripture away and said I would follow you some other day
I realized the mistake I made when I looked for the world to save me
I cannot believe that I gave the world a chance to crush me

Verse 1:
I know that you want me to grow in my walk with you
I am trying to put your scripture in my heart
It is really hard to live your word in my life
When I put your scripture away

Verse 2:
It hurts me to see your Bible on my shelf
I can’t look at anyone in the eye, without them seeing me cry
It hurts me so much that I may be living for myself
Then I read it again and I see the reason that you died

Inspired by “Scripture” by Apologetix off the Album “Apolo-coustix”