Jordan Mentz

I wrote this song because I messed up the Africa blogspot. I realized that I did not pray the way I should’ve and I realized how faithful God was.

There are many times when I mess up and the devil tries to overwhelm me
With thoughts of condemnation, worthlessness, and a spirit of fear
Oh but I will hold onto what I know to be the truth
The mistakes in my life I choose to let you take and use them

Chorus:
So many times I worry about the affects my mistakes will have
But each time I fall down and take another step toward seeing beauty
I can see you knew the mistake even I even made it and I know you
Have always had a plan to see your name glorified through my mistakes

Verse 1:
I know that each mistake I make you will comfort me
I admit I hadn’t prayed when I made a mistake and only now I am seeing
That you are faithful even when I fall down and even when I am dying on the ground
I don’t know where I would be if you didn’t rescue from my condemnation and took it all

Verse 2:
The biggest mistake I made has been not trusting you with my worries
Not praying when I knew you would come to save me
As I fell down on my face before you, you showed me what it means to be lifted up
Out of the pit of despair and I really truly knew that care so I give you everything.

Pre Chorus:
Looking back at the things God has taught me
I cannot believe all the lessons that I’ve learned
This year is coming to an end to prepare me
For the world and what’s to come

Chorus:
This stage of life was hard but I have learned so much
There were times when I cried myself to sleep
But I know that this is preparing me for a life of new beginnings
I cannot wait to see what is to come in the future

Verse 1:
There are times that I have wondered if this place was where God wanted me
But I am beginning to realize the reason God has given me my friends
Here I can worship and seek after God with other teens my age
I learned how to break out of my self inflicted cage

Verse 2:
If I could point out the things God has shown me
The list would be a million pages long
The songs I have written have shown me so much about the character of God
I am set on fire because He has given me a passion for His name

Pre Chorus:
Where have I wandered off to and where did I think I was going
If I was to be found would I sneak and go back into hiding
When did I decide to live a life a part from you all the while you were chasing after me
If I knew you were going to find me would I continue to live life concealed

Chorus:
Where did I think I would end up if I left you behind
And where did I go wrong when I lost every drop of innocence
I am coming back to my master because I have hidden from you for way to long
Where did I go you wanted to know so you could comfort me in my darkest alleys

Verse 1:
So many times I feel as if I am all alone
When I see all the times I have drifted away and squandered all I had
What was I thinking when I thought what the pigs had was good
I come back running to you and I thank you for receiving me when I chose to repent

Verse 2:
There have been moments in my life I feel so far away from your love
But I know it is my fault and I want to come back to your care
What was I thinking when I thought I could live life on my own
If I had to live my life again would I choose to turn from my sin

Pre Chorus:
Jesus I want to write this song to say thank you for all you’ve done for me
So many times I get so caught up in my own talents and aspirations that I leave you out
I cannot remember the last time I was still and remembered that you are God
There are numerous times I have forgotten what you gave for me

Chorus:
I am so grateful for your loving sacrifice and I want you to know that even though
I may not thank you as many times as I should I will always remember that you love me enough to want to spend time with me
I cannot believe your love reaches beyond me and I rest in the promise that you will never leave me or forsake me
I want to apologize for leaving you behind in my life because I was so caught up in the gifts you gave me

Verse 1:
In my soul is a longing that has been empty for so long even when I knew about you
I didn’t remember you could fill my emptiness, I want to let you into my life again
I will not forget what you did for me again and I have so many things to tell you and
I have many questions I want to ask you if I just take a moment and listen to you speak

Verse 2:
I see now that I have let you into my life but I have not given you control
I cannot live without your love in my life any longer I need you to make me meek because I can’t claim any of the gifts you’ve given me as my own
I pray that my song writing will bring you glory and my words will glorify your name

Pre Chorus:
I would love to explain the things that are happening to me
If I knew the reasons behind all these hard times I may stop trusting
I wish I had a way to explain it all away and a shoulder to cry upon
I am beginning to realize that there is no one who knows these pains like you

Chorus:
If I had all the time in the world would I stop long enough for you tell me why I go through the things that I struggle with
I cannot believe these obstacles
Keep getting in my way and I cannot explain it any better than you can
I need to confess something to you my Lord, I have not listened to you anyway

Verse 1:
I have heard you knocking and ignored your voice telling me to change
I have not been able to change because I have been believing a lie
That the struggles that I deal with will never go away I have been living in a shadow
Of fear and condemnation and each time I mess up I sell myself short

Verse 2:
I have been allowing the devil a foothold in my life and
I will not let him in anymore I have a choice to make and I will listen to my Savior
the one who died for me I refuse to believe that because I have not let you come into this situation you love me any less I can rest in your arms and I am crying and
I am tired of running away from you

Inspired by Ben Glover’s song “Lying to myself” off the Album “26 Letters”

Pre Chorus:
So many times I find my self drifting into a semi conscious state of mind
My view gets hazy and I cannot determine where one object ends and another begins
There are so many things that seem to blur together and it gets me all confused
Can I find hope in the confusion around me where I can find peace in the midst

Chorus:
What is reality because I have been inside a bubble that I made myself comfortable in
I cannot understand why you have given me a glimpse of your kingdom
When I seem so caught up in furthering my own in light of the love you have shown me
Can I dive back into reality because I have sheltered myself for way too long

Verse 1:
Is reality all I seem to make it or is it really just a mirage I see in my mind
I cannot see past this wall I have been trapped in for my entire life
I know that reality is not pretty but I need to catch a taste of what it is like in the world
I need to feel the pain of the people who are lost and searching for the truth

Verse 2:
I need a glimpse of reality because this world is hurting and dying before my eyes
Will I choose to listen to the devil keeping me from the truth listening to the lies
I can see this world searching will I just try to hide from the reality so I can be familiar
When I can’t believe the amazing love you’ve shown me and I will not hide it any more

Inspired by the song “More than it seems” by Kutless on the “Chronicles of Narnia soundtrack”

Pre Chorus:
I look around and I am overwhelmed and I am captured by your beauty
I don’t know why you created me with such a world to enjoy
I cannot believe of all the people you have chosen you picked me
If I knew how much you loved me I would be overwhelmed

Chorus:
I am overwhelmed because I feel your love for the nations
I am overwhelmed because I see this world falling
I don’t know how to explain your heart for this world
This is so amazing that you have given me a part

Verse 1:
Your grace has enveloped me and you have my heart
I cannot believe the heart you have for your people
I am trying to understand the love behind your actions
If you were to speak to me would I listen to your call

Verse 2:
Your love has overwhelmed me and I know that you have covered me
I don’t understand why I was worth such a giving sacrifice
I cannot believe you love me and even if I didn’t love you in return you
Would still give your life for me

Pre Chorus:
I have turned my back on you all this time and
I’ve tried to turn the tables and said it wasn’t so
I cannot remember the last time I wanted to say
I couldn’t live without you in my life

Chorus:
I see how I’ve treated you in the past and I know something isn’t right
I just want to write this song because I want you back and I am here
I cannot believe with the way I treated you; you want me to come back
I do not know why you are so good to me when I try to run away

Verse 1:
I can hear your voice calling me back
I don’t understand that after all I did to you, you are bidding me come
If I could say anything to you, I would ask for you to forgive me and I know
That you already have and I know that you love me for who I am not what I’ve done

Verse 2:
If you called me and told me that you wanted me back
I would believe you but I would still find it hard to swallow because I don’t
Understand this kind of sacrifice because it is so foreign to me that though I gave you pain
You want me back and you want me back in your arms.

Pre Chorus:
Does it really matter what the world thinks of me
Or does it only matter that I am who God is calling me to be?
I look around at this fallen world and I want to ask where you are
I cannot feel your touch from afar and I want you back in my life

Chorus:
Reveal to me a new way to see you in your majesty
Unveil to me another glimpse of the way you love me
Open my eyes so that I can see you in a world that has forgotten you
Teach me the way that I can see you amidst tough circumstances

Verse 1:
I am looking forward to the day when I’m gonna see you
I am striving to make your name great in all the world
I can see you working from the inside and I am beginning to feel a change
I am going to stop hiding so I can catch a glimpse of you in your splendor

Verse 2:
Because of the way you changed me others can see
The difference you have made in my life is unbelievable
I want others to see you in my life so that may bring honor to your name
I cannot even grasp the fact that one day I will see you

Pre Chorus:
It is because you forgave me that I can forgive myself And I know that since you forgave me I am forgiven What you did to buy me back on the hill of Calvary I ask myself the question did you die just for me

Chorus:
I have trouble forgiving things of my past because I feel so embarrassed I know you have taken my burden and offered me forgiveness I am still trying to let go of the guilt I feel on the inside I want to let go of the shame and I choose to give my burden to you

Verse 1:
I have been forgiven by the one who set me free And I no longer have to pay any of the fee because He bought me I cannot believe he chose to wrap me in his love And clothe me in his righteousness in exchange for filthy rags

Verse 2:
Is it really true that I can be a different person And have I grasped the concept that you forgave me when you died on the cross I need your strength to forgive myself but deep in my heart I know I am forgiven I can forgive myself because you’ve forgiven me for so much.