Jordan Mentz

Walking through this life, with the only thing to show for it; a trail of tears
With every tear that falls from your face; one step closer to feeling grace
Understanding the pain that you feel; even when it’s hard to believe anyone could
Ashamed the guilt of your past; tears are a part of the healing process

One day we will see the end of tears
One day there will be no more tears to shed
One day there will be no reason for pain
One day there will be no reason to cry

I give you my life
I give you my soul
I give you everything; I tried to hold onto; knowing that it would only hurt me
I give you every reason; for the tears that have come to my eyes

One day when the sky is open; one day when my Savior comes back
One day when the floodgates are released; we will see your face
One day we can see the cross; as a ransom for my life
One day we can let go of the pain; that is associated with sin

Trying so hard to see what lies ahead for me
Trying to make sense of everything that happens around me
I used to love the life I lived; until I finally found what it meant to lose it
I used to be looking for something; now I’ve finally found it

You broke me free
You broke me free from everything that held me back
You broke me free
You broke the chains that held me down

Now I can experience life the way it was meant to be
Now I can live a life of freedom; ever since that day that you broke me free
I thought I couldn’t see; but you’ve opened up my eyes
You took the darkness of my heart; and exposed my life to light

I am breakin’ free from the man I used to be
I am breakin’ free from the life I used to lead
I am breakin’ out of my shell
I am breakin’ out of my own self inflicted hell

We all want to be loved and we all need something to follow
Sometimes there are things that seem to cloud our vision of what love is
Love take my hand, and lead me to the cross
Show me what it means to give it all for love

Love take my hand; gently hold it as it holds my heart
Love I am asking you to take the lead
Love is what I am looking for; sometimes all I find is hurt
Things I thought would offer me love in return; turn out to force hurt upon me

You love me
You love me
Love take my life and make it what you want
Love may it be what you have planned

You are the definition of love Lord
You are the meaning of love my God
I ask what is the story behind love and
You tell me the story of what happened on Calvary

I was looking for something mushy; you showed me how love needed to be tough
I was looking for something to find me; you showed me that I had to lose myself
I was looking for something that would satisfy me; and you showed me it’s not about me
I was looking for something that was ordinary; and you showed me something that lasts

Have you been lookin’ for love in all the wrong places
Have you been lookin’ for love to fill the empty spaces
Have you been searchin’ for meaning of the word; tryin’ to figure out how to show it
Have your hopes been dashed; or have you given up on love altogether

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s Song “On and on” off the Album ‘Light meets the Dark’

In you Oh Lord do I hide my heart away
How can I hide when I know you will always find me
Tryin’ to put up a front; how I want others to see me
I don’t understand everything that you have for me

I need to trust you with every moment of my life I need to give you everything
Even when I can’t see I will keep on walkin’
By faith I will venture into the land of the unknown
Knowing that your hand will be there to guide me

In Him I live
For Him I live
In Him I find hope
In Him I find purpose

Why does it have to be so hard to find the places I have yet to show you
You already know everything, and you understand when my heart is breaking
You already conquered what I’ve hidden in my closets
You gave me joy, when I found my heart in you.

There are many times I am drawn to the things of this world
I know now that those things will only leave me wanting something more
I’ve tried to ignore the voice that is calling me away from this world
I realize now that the things of this world will only leave me with a void

Away from this world is what I hear you calling me to
Away from this world and its temporary pleasure
Away from this world you will find true peace
Away from this world you will find eternal joy

There are times when I try to grab what this world claims to offer
There are times when I realize that this heart of mine needs something more
There are other times when I think that I have it all together
And other instances where I choose to run back to the ways of this world

Away from this world is where my hope is found
Away from this world is where my heart is
Away from this world’s mentality, you have to come out on top
Away from this world’s false sense of security

Into the arms of my savior
Into the hands of my creator
Into the lap of my lover
Into the lap of my Daddy

If I told you someone could understand everything about you
If I told you someone could comfort you in your times of pain
If I told you someone could would listen when everyone else is sleeping
If I told you someone could give you life and offer you his hand

Would you listen and believe me
Would you cry out to your maker
Would you take the time and talk to him
Would you see the world any differently

What would happen if I told you the answer to your questions is Jesus
What would happen if you just let him hold you close to himself
What would happen if you conversed with him and a had a heart to heart
What would happen if you saw others through his lens

He would be there to console you
He would be there to comfort you
He would be there to listen
He would be there to love you

Don’t run away from him
Don’t think you’re chasing him away
Don’t think that he doesn’t love you
Don’t think that anything can happen to separate you from him

Don’t you know how much you’ve hurt me
Don’t you care enough to listen
Don’t you care about anyone but yourself
Don’t you know how it feels to be abandoned

You should know that God still loves you
You should know that God will take you back
You should know that God put others first
You should know that God will never leave you or forsake you

You don’t care how your selfish actions have blinded you from truth
You don’t care how the knife you stabbed me with; your words stuck in me deep
You don’t care about how this story ends
You don’t care about the way it was poorly written

There are a lot of times that I have wanted it to end peacefully between us
There are a lot of times that I wish you didn’t hurt me; the damage has been done
There are times when I thought; how could you be so naive to what you were doing
Time after time you have been a big obstacle for my healing

You don’t know how much our words matter
You have no idea what you’ve crushed inside
You have no recollection of our conversations
You have no memory of your past

So many times I forget the meaning of the cross
To gather the sheep that were once considered lost
I mess up every day, and a lot of times I tend to shy away
From your open arms outstretched to embrace me

You tell me to come to the cross,
I stand in awe of your sacrifice for me
When will I decide to come back
You’ll still be waiting longing for me to come back home

I saw an image on Calvary’s tree on that night
I saw my heart being made new
I saw my heart being ransomed
I felt my heart had been set free

I tried to see the meaning
I tried so hard to live this life on my own
I tried to say I didn’t need you
You welcomed me into your arms outstretched

At the cross I find peace
At the cross I find healing
At the cross I offer you my life
At the cross your blood has washed me clean

At the cross you called me your child
At the cross you called me clean
At the cross you called me home
At the cross you called me son

I tend to push things aside if they get in our way
We all tend to push hands away if they try to touch us
I have trouble pushing myself out of the way when it gets in God’s way
I try to hold on to every safe guard that I’ve created because I wanted to feel safe

All my selfish desires I push aside
All my selfish pride I push aside
All my sinful practices I push aside
All the things that don’t please you; I push aside

I know that there are obstacles in my life that have kept me from you
I seem to run into them more and more each day
Rather than push them aside I use them as excuses
Rather than give you my life I seem to hide behind it

Everything that has kept me from you
Everything that has kept me from seeing you
I push it aside and run into your arms
I can see you when I look for you

There comes a time in everyone’s lives that they will need to make their own decisions
There comes a time when everyone will have to grow up, and embrace responsibility
There comes a time when the only opinion that really matters is God’s
There comes a time when you need to go against the grain

A winter season that we may see more obstacles than triumphs
More struggles of trying to stay on your feet, so you don’t fall down on your face
The times when you can see your warm breath but you can feel nothing
The times when you the only thing your eyes meet is the driving wind

There comes a time when you must make decisions, that will better you as a person
There comes a time when everything you do will be looked at under a microscope
There comes a time when advice is abundant, but you will have none of it
There comes a time when you realize the life God has called you to is unique to you

There are times that you wonder could all this stuff really be happening in the world
There are times when your heart is so overwhelmed all you see is tears
There are times when your heart is so conflicted between two former loves
You don’t know what is done, and what hurt you still have left to embrace

The times that you’re bleeding and your heart is shattered
The times that you’re wondering does anyone even care
The times that you’re so ashamed you don’t want to get up
God is going to give you strength if you let him in and give him your heart