Jordan Mentz

It’s hard for me to understand what it means to forgive them, the people who want to inflict harm on others, just because it gives them an adrenaline rush. I know that there is forgiveness, but I just don’t understand the hurt they must feel. I know there is hope for the worst of people, because I know that I am one of them. I know that the sacrifice you made is for everyone, but sometimes I try to compare my self to others, and say I am better than that. I know it’s not the truth, but I am asking you to show me that I don’t deserve anything good. I know that your love is a gift, for everyone and please help me not to be selfish and keep it to myself. When we don’t forgive we only hurt ourselves, and where we go wrong is when we start justifying our actions and putting them up against the most heinous crimes against humanity. I know that I was the reason you had to die, because of sin I am separated from you. I am hopeful for tomorrow, because I have a future. I am trying to love others that seem too hard to understand. I admit I am not perfect, and I am not any better than the rest. I just want you to know that I need you to guide me in this journey called life. I am asking you to teach me how to love unconditionally, even the people who find joy in making my life difficult. Life isn’t always fair, but I know that you will make it right in your timing. So many times we don’t want to wait, we want to take matters into our own hands and administer our version of justice right away, but we need to trust you to make every wrong right. The people involved in Columbine, the victims, the gunmen, the families, all are searching for your love.
The people who were involved in planning September 11, all are in need of grace. When I look at them, teach me not to look at them with anger but with a broken heart, because if I didn’t know you could I be capable of such crimes. We all want the bad guys to lose, but in your upside down world we need to love them.
I don’t understand why you are using me to communicate your heart, but I feel honored that you have given me a gift. I don’t have it all figured out but hopefully your words will come to life for people who read them on my website. All glory goes to you Lord.

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s song “Losing” off their album “The struggle”

Set my heart ablaze, with a passion for making your name known
Ignite my desire, to serve you with all my being
We are called to be the light in this dark and fallen world
We are chosen to proclaim the truth to the lost

We possess the cure for this broken world
We have been summoned to spread the gospel
We breathe to bring honor to your name
We long to share the answers that this world is missing

Be the light, Be the light
Be the light, that keeps on burning
Be the light, that keeps on shining
Be the light, that glimmers in the distance

Like a lighthouse is a beacon
As a ship tries to find the shore
Like a refuge for the weak
Light the path to bring others shelter

The waves are crashing, the rain is making me wonder if there is eternal light
Be the light that this world has been searching for
Be the light that humanity has overlooked
Be the answer to the inquiries this world has about what makes you shine brighter

Inspired by Kari Jobe
“We are” off the Album “Where I find you”

Live in the freedom that is the cross
Walk in the grace that meets us every day
Mercy lights the way in this dark and fallen world
Freedom awaits the one who lets everything he once knew go

In a world that has seen so much bondage
In a world that needs to hear the truth
In a world where the news brings tears to your eyes
In a world that thinks secrets are the norm

Freedom to stand for what you believe
Freedom to live for what our Savior died for
Freedom to share the gospel of the cross
Freedom to be the people we were created to be

God has set us free from a life of bondage
God has called us to live a life unhindered by conventional ways of wisdom
God has given us a new hope; called us to be different
God has ordained us to preach his message

If my God made me free, I am free indeed
Since my God has a purpose for me, I am an instrument of his love to show the hurting world
If my God has a plan I want to be a part
Since my God has chosen me; I am his child

Inspired by Kari Jobe
“Savior’s Here” off the Album “Where I find you”

We all want to be loved and we all need something to follow
Sometimes there are things that seem to cloud our vision of what love is
Love take my hand, and lead me to the cross
Show me what it means to give it all for love

Love take my hand; gently hold it as it holds my heart
Love I am asking you to take the lead
Love is what I am looking for; sometimes all I find is hurt
Things I thought would offer me love in return; turn out to force hurt upon me

You love me
You love me
Love take my life and make it what you want
Love may it be what you have planned

You are the definition of love Lord
You are the meaning of love my God
I ask what is the story behind love and
You tell me the story of what happened on Calvary

I was looking for something mushy; you showed me how love needed to be tough
I was looking for something to find me; you showed me that I had to lose myself
I was looking for something that would satisfy me; and you showed me it’s not about me
I was looking for something that was ordinary; and you showed me something that lasts

Have you been lookin’ for love in all the wrong places
Have you been lookin’ for love to fill the empty spaces
Have you been searchin’ for meaning of the word; tryin’ to figure out how to show it
Have your hopes been dashed; or have you given up on love altogether

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s Song “On and on” off the Album ‘Light meets the Dark’

She comes into the room and stands in the corner
Longing; wanting; hoping to be noticed
Wonderin’ if anyone would notice if she disappeared from the party scene
Darkness seemed to invade the very depths of her soul

There is hope; for you girl; there is life in feeling broken
Shattered heart and all; come as you are; come lay your heart at the cross
Light awaits you at the end of this tunnel; God will give you the strength you need
There is life for you; but you need to let your’s go; give it to Jesus; let Him have it

In the corner, where the walls come together; no need to feel trapped;
You feel like the war inside you is tearin’ your heart apart
You feel like there must be more to life than tears and suffering
You feel like the weight on your shoulders will crush you

The corner of your life you don’t want others to see
The corner of your life you don’t want to clean
The corner of your soul where you know you’ve got cobwebs
The corner of your life that has you enclosed within the lies that trap you

There is hope of being rescued
There is hope of watching the corners of your self-inflicted cage come crashing down
A place that was once dark; filled with light; a place of hurt; now a place of healing
A place that was hidden from others; a place that has been redeemed by his blood

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s Song “Who you are” off the Album ‘Light meets the Dark’

So many walls around me; I thought they would protect me
So many rooms that I have created; thinkin’ to myself no one will ever see
So many places in my life where my sin hides; knowin’ that it needs to collide with truth
So many compartments, excuses, selfish ambitions, and hopeless dreams reside

At the cross; the light collides with my sin; a beautiful collision
At the cross; a dark man on the inside; as white as snow; yet covered by your blood
At the cross; a fallen man who found out what it means to let sin collide;
At the cross; you invite me to come; to be your child;

I don’t know why I live in the dark; I guess it was all I knew
Til I made the decision to bring my sin out into the light;
I lived as a child of the world; You have ransomed my life on Calvary
I am now your child; I am asking you to collide; break down these walls

I realized that the walls that I created; had trapped me on the inside
I could see out but refused to let anyone come in
I felt my sin close in around me; and it trapped my soul; You have freed me
A life of victory; a life of liberty; a life of freedom; a life of peace that you offer

I used to like to live my life in isolation;
I used to say to myself; it’s better, it’s better this way;
You have invited me to a life of community; made me a part of your family
You told me that I belong to you; as I let my sin collide with the cross

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North Off the Album “Light meets the Dark” and the song ‘Healing begins’

I wanna break free from the bondage that seems to hold me back
I wanna break free from the things that I once loved
I want a clean break from everything that has weighed me down
I want a fresh start to be who God created me to be

I want something more
I want to live for something greater than myself
I wanna dig for deeper meaning than what lies on the surface
Tryin’ to find the one I am lookin for

Breakin’ free experiencing the life that lies in front of me
Breakin’ free from the things that held me back before
I am crashin’ through the walls that I have created
Like a prison cell that I locked myself in

Darker than the night
Darker still was my heart before you found me
You tore away the things that kept me from seeing you
You helped me realize that my only hope is you

Inspired by Mess of me, off Hello Hurricane by Switchfoot.

There may have been some chemistry between us
But I realized that when I tried to give you my heart it fell apart
Didn’t know why the pieces were all scattered
I chose not to look, but saw all my dreams shattered

I will try not to remember the times that hurt my heart
I wanted to let you back in my life, but it was too hard
Everytime I tried to tell you how I felt
You showed me how to play the hand you dealt

A life of pain and misery
A life of guilt and shame
I don’t need to live in the shadow of past mistakes
Things that may have been

There have been times when I wanted to be held
You offered to hold me but I knew it all along
I needed to let you go, because it was what was best
I don’t know how to deal with my emotions, when I realized that you weren’t the one for me

Another road has led me to the end
You once were more than a friend
Now that I know that I’ve let you go
The road to healin my broken heart has officially begun

Inspired by Collin Rainey’s song Closure

Tryin’ to figure this life out on my own
Every time you offer me your hand
I push you away because I don’t trust you enough
I fight against myself; fighting everything I know to be right

You want to hold me but I push you away
You want to be near to me but I won’t let you
You want to hear me but I won’t tell you what’s on my heart
I don’t want to keep pushing you away

There are times when I wanna see but I can’t
Because I’ve put other things before you between you and I
Wanted to grab a hold of you but I pushed your hand away
You gently waited and held me even though I didn’t want you to

You told me you loved me even when I tried to pretend I didn’t hear you
You held my heart when I didn’t know what was going on
You touched my life in a way that I could never imagine
You picked up the pieces and put them together just the way you planned

Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s Song “By your side”

My heart sings your song, the song of redeeming love
What was once a heart of stone, you’ve melted by your presence
Take my heart, I give you my life as a testament of your love
My heart was dark, and now it sings of the glorious light

My heart was broken, but you offer your healing touch
I thought my sin was too much
I saw it cost you your son and I owe it all to you
You have taught me what it means to sing of your promises

My heart sings
My heart sings a song of hope
My heart sings a tune of rejoicing
My heart sings this offering of love to you

A heart that can hear the words that the angels sing
A heart that joins in the chorus of the heavenly hosts
A heart that cries you are Holy, You are Holy
A heart that bleeds forgiveness, and washes me as snow

Inspired by Klaus Kuehn while with Kari Jobe watching the video podcast