Jordan Mentz

The night is cold and my heart seems just as dark at times
I want to come out into the open but I’ve got so many secrets that are hidden
To keep living a private life with a darkened sense of reality
I’ve wanted to live a life in the light of my savior,
Closing my eyes, crying myself to sleep because my secrets aren’t surprises to you

I don’t know why it feels so good to keep living my double life
Putting up a front, like a wall that protects me
In the end the only one that is hiding is me
From the light that frees me, from the son who loves me
I know that he loves me, but its hard for me to see that when I am in the dark

I have found someone who will hold me through the tough times
I long to come back like the one lost sheep gone astray
I know that God will find me, and bring me to the light
Nothing is hidden from my God, so I want to live in the light
No more using darkness to hide me, and pretending that it doesn’t matter.

Inspired by Rick Stump off the song “Daylight coming” off the Album “Mission to find me.”

Pre Chorus:
If I laid my life down before as an open book
And let you author every word that was written
Would my life be different than if I tried to hide
Some of my darkest secrets from the one who created me

Chorus:
I lay my life as an open book before you
I am asking for you to reveal to me the things I have hidden from you for so long
I want you to take the pen from my hand and I want to let you write your plan
Within the empty pages I need you to tell your story of your faithfulness

Verse 1:
If you gave me every word would I really write it right
Would I tremble with the pen and would it really be what you want
If I gave you the pen and let you write my life, then I would
Have nothing to worry about and I could rest in peace

Verse 2:
I lay before you my life as an empty book waiting for you to write the story
Of what you’ve done in my life, nothing I have written is worth anything in light of what you gave me on the day of salvation
If I gave you the writing quill, would I learn to trust you still or would I take the pen back and try to write my life myself?

Inspired by the song “I know You’re Calling” by Jeremy Camp on the Album “Burden Me”

Pre Chorus:
I bow down before your throne
I raise my head and touch your robe
I have been redeemed and am free
I can worship with all of me

Chorus:
My hands were clasped as if your arms were around me
Tears flowing down my face
Singing words of forgiveness, words of grace
I sang with all I had, because You are all I have

Verse 1:
When I know you are listening, everything else fades away
I don’t care how I may look to others
It’s just you and me in the throne room
I have been woven inside the womb.

Verse 2:
I worship you with all I am
You have been my strength
My feet cannot stand still because of the overwhelming joy
I don’t want to suppress it any longer

Inspired by Leeland “You’ve Stolen My heart” Dedicated to Hannah Wyatt after encouraging me to worship with my entire heart on Thursday night.

The night is cold and my heart seems just as dark at times
I want to come out into the open but I’ve got so many secrets that are hidden
To keep living a private life with a darkened sense of reality
I’ve wanted to live a life in the light of my savior,
Closing my eyes, crying myself to sleep because my secrets aren’t surprises to you

I don’t know why it feels so good to keep living my double life
Putting up a front, like a wall that protects me
In the end the only one that is hiding is me
From the light that frees me, from the son who loves me
I know that he loves me, but its hard for me to see that when I am in the dark

I have found someone who will hold me through the tough times
I long to come back like the one lost sheep gone astray
I know that God will find me, and bring me to the light
Nothing is hidden from my God, so I want to live in the light
No more using darkness to hide me, and pretending that it doesn’t matter.

Inspired by Rick Stump off the song “Daylight coming” off the Album “Mission to find me.”

Pre Chorus:
I try to discover each and every day the reason I breathe and I question the reason I’m alive
I have been searching for answers and I’ve found answers in your word and I have found a peace that I cannot explain
I am sick and tired of living for myself and I am not going to live any longer because I have found my worth in all that you are
If I discover the reason you chose to breathe life into me, would I then be able to truly live for you

Chorus:
Please continue to show me the reason I why I live
Thank you for the gift of life you give
I cannot say it enough I want to live a life of purpose
I want to start living today and I see it no other way

Verse 1:
You are the reason I breathe I want to bring glory and honor to you alone
I want my life to be a testimony of the love you have shown
I cannot imagine living a life that is dead and I am asking for you to breathe life into me again
I thank you for being there for me when I was down and out

Verse 2:
I need you remind me the reason why I live so I can give you my all
Help me remember the reason you lifted me from the fall
I know I don’t deserve another breath but you give it to me anyway
So I will live for you and trust you with today

Inspired by the song The place where I belong by MercyMe of their album Coming up to Breathe

Pre Chorus:
I want to make a difference and I want my ears to be open to what you say
I don’t care what others say about me because I am safe and secure in your arms
I need to give you my all but so many times I fall and I choose to give up hope
There are many times when I question if you’re really there beside me but I know you are

Chorus:
In the middle of the night wake me up so you can say what you want
I am asking for you to say what you wanna say through me
May my life reflect your glory and my actions your name
I do not know how to express how much I want you to speak through me

Verse 1:
There are many things that are close to your heart
And I have no clue what to ask of you or where to start
I ask for you to say what you wanna say use me
I need your heart to be expressed through my lyrics because I believe you

Verse 2:
May every word I write never be of my own
May my one true focus be on making your name known
I cannot write on my own accord because I know I have nothing to give you
I long for you to use me to bring your name into all the nations through what I write

Inspired by the song by MercyMe 3:42am (Writer’s block)

So many times/I try to form a sentence/to describe the creator of the universe/and so many times/I try to praise Him by forming a sentence/but I can not form a sentence that/fully states the magnitude/of the greatness of who he is/

Forming a sentence would not be enough/to describe the way that Jesus loves me/a sentence cannot contain Him/words cannot not begin explain Him/language cannot say enough/the love I am speechless when I try to describe him/

If I could write the perfect sentence/which would not even be close/to being enough/there are no words/there is no explanation/for this sacrifice/other than God loves me/that is all I can think of when I cry/I know I don’t know how to create a sentence/that truly magnifies your name/my life is different now/may it never be the same/

If I formed the longest sentence/it would stretch to infinity/and it would be more than a sentence/it would be countless words beyond/the measure of time/could never contain/or no mind could comprehend/a world time where has no end/It is so hard to grasp/the grip you have on me/because your love has taken over me/I don’t know how to see/the image of the invisible/

But I continue to look around/I begin to see, the healing taking place/within my shattered heart/and if I should begin to tell you/the way you loved me/I wouldn’t know where to start

Inspired by Ben Glover’s Song 26 Letters

Prechorus: As a child has faith to move mountains
Believing there is something greater
There must be something bigger than themselves
I have let the misperceptions, and the misinterpretations, get in the way

Chorus: Child like faith is what I long for,
Child like faith is what I want,
how I remember the times, when nothing else mattered
Accepting people for who they are, without passing on judgement to them
Accepting no for an answer, and being satisfied with life

Verse 1: Teach me Lord to ask questions, when I don’t know the answer
An opinion that withstands the cliche’s of this world
Without being afraid of what other people will think of me
The faith that lies behind this calloused heart of mine

Verse 2: The child like tendencies, that once were inside me have seemed to disappear
The questions I am afraid to ask, that children would ask because they don’t know the answer
The answers that you give me, should be ok with me, even if I don’t understand the reason
Questions that I have searching for the answers, finding the deeper treasures buried in your word

Inpsired by Jason Patchett “The Wonder” off the album “Are you ready to go?”