In my mind I admit I had imagined what it would be like
To spend the rest of my life alone
I didn’t want anyone to know that I was afraid to bare my heart on the phone
I wanted there to be some sort of mask to try to hide my pain and confusion
In my mind, there was pain and confusion
Trying to see past the intimate illusion that people really knew who I was on the inside
What happened to the childlike spirit that seemed to disappear at the same time I did
There are so many things I wanted to hide knowing it would be better to find a friend to
confide
I am learning to sort out the things in my mind
A lot like cleaning out my closet
I found out what is true about me
And that’s what I want others to see
There are many times I have looked for something more to make sense of this thing called humanity
I tried and tried, and in the end it realized that I was gonna have to plead insanity
Trying the same thing over and over and expecting the results to be different.