I have been trying to focus/on the things that don’t even matter/in the light of eternity/the abuse of my heart/has really taken it’s toll on me/
The things that I call my defenses/the things I thought would keep me safe/turned out to be bruising my soul more/I didn’t want to tell you/
because I was worried that you would hit me again/I didn’t want to share my thoughts with you anymore/because I am so beaten and damaged/
by the things that you said/there isn’t any point anymore/
If you want to hurt me/the damage has been done/and now you left me to heal on my own/I don’t know what to say to you/because I once trusted you/
you took my heart/and used it to wipe your angry feet/I didn’t want to tell you/because there would never be enough time to heal/from the way you treated me/
If I were to break away/from the abuse of my past/if I were to share with someone/who told me I shouldn’t feel the way I do/it would crush me even more/
I tried to build up my walls/but right now they are holding me back/
I can’t trust you anymore/because you have hurt my heart so many times/I offer you a hand and you break my fingers/I tried for the longest time to feel again/
I cried myself to sleep/because the same person that I thought I was trusting/turned out to be the one who crushed my hopes and dreams/I can’t begin to tell you/
the amount of pain you have caused me/because you’re not ready to understand/I tried to be honest with you/we saw how that worked out/the words that you told me/
I thought were true/turned out to be all lies/
It’s hard to learn to trust again/because of the deception that keeps me coming back/I know it will heal/but you may not be a part anymore/I have so much to live
for/I wish I could say the same of you/I know our paths will cross again/but when they do/atleast I will be happy/know that I have found the one who gets me/know
that I can move on from this/It’s been a windy road/full of death and destruction/but I choose to start my life over/even if it means that I let go of the ones
that I thought loved me/