Today was a big day, I met with my new counselor and I picked an organization so that I can have a life coach.
Trying to process…all these emotions…feeling a little bit scared…to let others be a part of my life…it’s hard for me to try new things…but there is a time…and the time to heal is just beginning…the time to grow is happening now…there are a lot of things I wish I had…then looking at others sometimes it makes me sad…
Trying to heal…when you’re afraid…because all you want to do is protect…the things that made me run…do I really need to revisit…the things that I wish I could just forget…there are things that I’ve learned…and things I know now…the things that once broke me…bringing them to the surface…it’s harder when those things…try to keep me hostage…
Trying to heal…trying to be real…trying to express how I feel…thinking all the while I got a raw deal…it’s tough to remember that…it’s a decision that I can make…with the cards that I was dealt…let others in and begin to heal…or keep it all contained inside my mind…while I feel safer with no one knowing…
Wondering if silence is golden…why is it so loud inside my head…trying to listen to God’s voice but it’s a whisper…there are many other things that try to steal my joy…trying to grab my attention…lately it seems that I’ve been stuck…feeling like I was hit by a truck…sometimes so scared to change…Like a deer in the headlights…