Written after I thought my shunt was failing.
I have got to admit I am a little bit anxious about what is next
I got to confess my faith is weak but I want to have more
I tend to put my trust in the things that are clear to my way of thinking
A little bit scared to start my life over
Laying in the hospital looking at my phone
Remembering all the love you have shown me
Trying to think of the good but my mind was overwhelmed with anxiety
Trying to get past myself is the hardest thing I have to deal with right now
I get in the way
I think that I deserve the things I have
When I know in my heart you have given me everything I have
I don’t deserve anything,, because all I have is you
Trying to justify my way of living life without thinking of the cross
Trying to understand my own humanity, and how wrong it is to think I deserve anything
Trying to clear my mind and looking for something that I could never find on my own
Sitting in the waiting room, waiting to be seen and hopefully get some answers