Written at a time when everything that I thought I had already experienced, had to be reset because my life has changed so much. It’s as if I am starting over, but I am stronger because of the pain.
I don’t know what is happening everything seems like I am experiencing it for the first time
It’s hard because this world tells us that progress is measured by moving forward
A new experience that I thought I had before, is met with walls I built to try to protect me
I didn’t even notice that I had built them, but I have ran into them over and over
Each new step it seems like I am just learning all over
It’s only when I try to move forward and then I remember that I built a wall
I build walls to try to guard me, but they hold me back
Each step, I will bring everything I have learned in the past and use it to tear down the walls
It doesn’t make sense because I often find myself in the same situations
It doesn’t mean I am not moving forward
It takes a little longer with my tools that I brought
It sometimes gets discouraging, but I keep on pressing on toward my Jesus
A new experience that was scary in the past, protected by walls that need to come down
It feels like I am treading water, and staying stuck in the past
This time will be different as I tear down the walls I created
This time will make me stronger, because I have the strength now I didn’t have before