Written at a time when I had lost my best friend, and got to the point where I was beginning to realize that there was nothing I could do to change their mind.
I didn’t want to hurt you/I only wanted to make you feel better/there were times when I didn’t know how to encourage you/how to minister to you/because you told me that your heart was broken/I tried everything to make you feel better/but in the end/the choice was yours/that the words I had spoken/made you uncomfortable/
I know it’s not all your fault/I know it’s not all on me either/the friend I thought I could trust/and be real with/decided they wanted something different/than the words I had to offer/to act as a pillow for their heart/to rest upon/I didn’t mean to hurt you/the words I said were meant to encourage you/
Like a crime scene trying to be solved/shots were fired in both directions/but I didn’t realize that until it was too late/to revive our friendship/There are things I understand/and many things I don’t get/I realize now that sometimes/we hurt the ones we love/we never mean to but it’s just the way it is/
I better get lower/because the bullets are flying/trying to keep myself protected/only to be exposed/when I needed some cover/when we didn’t know how our silence was hurting/like the whirring of a bullet going past/trying to keep you safe/now turned into running for my life/It’s okay for it to hurt/to lose the ones you love/