When I told you that you hurt my feelings…would that be enough for you to change your behavior around me…or would it cause you to make light of my insecurities even more…or would it cause a riff in our friendship…a chasm deep enough…to make things turn sour…
Would you try to understand the things that I am going through…you may never have to…and that the pain I carry daily…wasn’t given to me by choice…I wish I could leave it all behind…I wish I could pretend for a minute…that everything was perfect…but that’s not how trauma works…
Can you help me heal…even if it means just lending an ear…someone to listen…and to say nothing when I don’t have all the words…sometimes the days are long for me…and the pain hurts deep…those are the days that my heart is most tender…