I tried the best I could…things didn’t work out the I thought…the course my life has taken lately…is full of twists and turns…and I am learning to be content…I knew my life wasn’t over…but I couldn’t understand when the Savior told me the best is yet to come…
If these struggles will never pass…would my pain be in vain…when I wanted to hope…but filled with despair…not knowing what came next…it’s a long hard journey…through the mixed emotions…shuffled like a deck of playing cards…trying to play the hand I was dealt…
If this is how it’s supposed to be…sleeping too much…crying into my pillow…trying to make the pieces fit…scattered on the floor and all mixed up…overwhelmed with gratitude…but also with fear I’m not asking the right questions…maybe I am but not getting many answers…
I am going to go insane…I am going to go crazy…I am trying the same thing…over and over…expecting different results…the laws of nature kicking my behind…when I don’t know what’s next…when I am struggling…I just feel all that emotion…isn’t safe with everyone I choose to tell…