This was written when I learned that I had a team to help me heal.
Are you ready to catch a glimpse into my mind
A truer version of myself you will never find
Are you ready to have your world turned upside down and inside out
If you are, then let me take you on a journey how hope replaced my doubt
Are you trying to tell me to be real but not liking what I’ve got to share
I don’t want to be a pessimist, but I was beginning to wonder if you really care
I will not try to suppress my feelings any longer
Let me be who I am because I will turn out stronger
I think that this world is wrong
How could I say that, but listen to this song
It’s not about what you’ve did, have done, or will do
I will not try hiding anymore because I want to be real with you
Like an earthquake,
This world refuses to give us a fair shake
I look around and I see a world of hurt and sorrow
Not thinking about what I do today will affect me tomorrow
I see a lot of crying but is it weak to show emotion to the things you live for
I understand when you feel beat up and your heart is tore
There is truth in the midst of all the chaos
But we are too worried trying to get Verizon FIOS to notice
Trying to hide your pain
Will only end up driving you insane
I will write about real things
I will rap about the King of Kings
The world tells us we need a side hustle
The Lord is speaking to me in the midst of the bustle
These words aren’t of me
I want others can see who God created me to be
If you got a problem let’s have a heart to heart conversation
Because I see a lot of people trying to avoid confrontation
I don’t like how it feels to be hurt
I don’t like how it feels to be treated like dirt
But that can not and I will not let the actions of others define who I am
Yeah I get anxious and begin to stem
A storm of emotions but I know God won’t let me drown
Come to think of it He has never let me down
I feel sometimes like I am strange and all alone
I forget the love that my Savior has shown
A person can break your trust, and make you afraid to ever trust again
A cross and Savior has come to cleanse you of all guilt, shame, and sin
I hear the sirens that make me realize that tell me I am going be okay
Do you hear the commotion in your mind that is this thing we call today
The voices screaming in my head won’t be quiet and I tend to get frustrated
They won’t go away they act like a person I once dated
A beat so rad
A song that will make you glad
There are many things I don’t understand about why things happen the way they do
There are many different avenues but I call them detours that keep you from being you
Lyrics so hot that it hurts to type
Make sure you don’t drown in all the hype
It is clear to me, that people are afraid to be real
Why are there so many people who try to run after they steal
It feels good to be honest with myself
Not ever enough books written about my thoughts, don’t leave it up on the shelf
If you don’t catch the words that I am saying
I can’t be the one left behind and explaining
As I type my thoughts becoming faster
I hope the words I speak will keep you from disaster
So many different things that I’d like to share with the younger me to help avoid conflict
I feel like we are no longer together, because the old me and new contradict
Problems will not go away if you pretend they don’t exist
If you try to hide from the pain and then I learned pain and love can co-exist
Look upon the cross, and see the tears in my Savior’s eyes
He listens and hears your cries
A whole different life before me I tried living in my past
Like the soldiers for your clothes my die was cast
A broken life healed and my future secured
I think the younger me would say that’s absurd