A milestone

This isn’t a song! This is my 500th post!

But seriously, did you think that I wouldn’t write a memoir commemorating this?

A milestone in writing…another piece of paper used…more of my heart on my sleeve…
I can’t imagine a life where you have to hold everything in…There is more to me that can’t be bottled up…
I want to make a difference…I want to help others, by sharing my mistakes and observations…
I didn’t get to where I am overnight…I didn’t get here without countless sleepless nights…not wanting to write because I didn’t want to…

I wanted to give up…I wanted to let it all go…but then I realized I couldn’t…others needed to hear my story…
I was frustrated that there had to be so much pain…heartache and very little else…I didn’t want to show anyone else…
I wanted to be done…with my writing as it is so hard for me to hurt and then share…I wrote so many things that just aren’t fair…
I have been writing a book…for a while now…it is a lot of work…it isn’t almost finished…

Every time I think I’ve got it right…I end up changing what I write…trying to make it better…easier to navigate my site…
It can be frustrating…not knowing how to say what you want…how you want it to come out…I don’t know when it will be up online…
I kind of use it as a journal of sorts…but there is a lot of truth…break up with my fear…and let God draw me near…
I tried to hide my pain…I tried to ease it away…by pretending it didn’t exist…I tried to make the words come out…but they just didn’t flow…

I kept my head up…I kept pressing in to the word of the Lord…I found peace, joy and excitement…
I enjoy writing…but I know at times it is tough…I can’t do it on my own…I am in need of inspiration…I look to the Bible to find my value…
It’s sometimes a rough ocean to navigate…and I may lose my way…and take on too much water…feel like I’m drowning…
I don’t know how to say it…but I am thankful for my outlet…It puts things in perspective…I don’t know where I’d be…without being able to write…

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