As the unfolds somethings are exciting/others are disappointing/if it were up to me/I may make a few changes/
about what I think is best/I know that’s not how it is/because God is in control/I wouldn’t want to interfere/
It’s fun to think about/a life where we get everything/but let’s face reality/we often don’t know/what it is that’s best/
If it were up to me/I think I would take away the pain/that goes with suffering/but I’m not in control/
and I know we have to trust in the ultimate healer/I know there are times we need to struggle/
I just am looking forward to the day when my wounds are healed/sin will have no power/and we will be whole again
I know that without a doubt/that day is coming/a time when there will be no sorrows/no waiting until tomorrow/
a time when we can forever worship our king/It’s hard to look forward/when your past is so cloudy/
we sometimes do the things that don’t please you/it’s really hard for us to confess/
but I know you will forgive us/a lot of times I pretend things are good/when I am hurting inside/
I think you don’t know that I’m hurting/I think you don’t care/I know that’s not the case/
I look forward to seeing you on your throne/It’s hard for me to see the good/when this world is filled with bad/
just turn on the nightly news/
If it were up to me/would I really run my life better/would it be a mess/would I get all flustered/
the simple truth is I want to give you full control/I don’t want it to be up to me anymore/
I want to put my trust in you/and let you guide my steps/but sometimes I get scared/I don’t mean to doubt your will/
I don’t mean to stray away/I know that you will bring me back/when I fall away/It does no good hiding/
because you see everything/I feel better when I confess my sins to you/but it hurts getting to that place/
because I know when I sin that hurts you/there is a lot to look forward to/but sometimes it hurts so bad/
I keep trying to go back/
If this life was up to me/would I make it easy/or would I make it painless/I would never grow/and I would never know pain/
because I wouldn’t have that in my plan/then I would never grow/never branch out and never understand/
three nails on a cross/that took my sins away/and I would never have been washed/by the blood of my precious Savior/
I know that you died for me/but I know that I hurt you/You love me anyway/you love me for who I am/
not for what I’ve done/or what I can do/You have paid the ultimate price for my soul/and I want to give you full control/