Another minute passing…another fork in the road…another decision to be made…a time of action…a time of waiting…
So many emotions…going through my head…so much activity some days…my head is spinning out of control…trying to hope…
some days are like that…people will never understand…that’s ok because…there are paths to be explored…it’s hard…
to keep on the right track…
Mind racing…heart speeding up…will it be worth it in the end…can I see through the tears I’ve cried…so many times…
I wonder if it will be worth fighting…other times it feels impossible to stand…on my knees…crying out is there any help for me…
On my knees…that’s when I learn what it means to stand…there are a lot of obstacles that seem to get in between…my goals and dreams…
It’s been a while…since I was able to hope…
I don’t know what my future will hold…I don’t know why God has given me this path to get there…a path filled with twists and turns…
a path where you cannot see the next steps…sometimes I struggle to remember…where the journey has taken me…I tend to only remember…
where it has left me…I know I need to trust…in something bigger than myself…but it’s so hard when myself is standing in my way…
It’s hard for me to imagine what life could be…when you don’t know what to expect…in the coming days…
If it could be up to me…would I choose a different course…or would I make it straight…these things that lead me to trust…
I wouldn’t be able to see…would I skip the hard times…and choose the path more traveled…living in the present…but not knowing what it means to trust…
the unknown can be scary sometimes…but I will choose your way…because you know where this is going…if it were up to me would I choose to take the higher road…
So many things…stand in my way right now…