Open up my mind and you will see something like a story
Sometimes the pages are scattered and some pages are half written
Thinking about the way that my life used to be trying to pin the blame on me
My life is like a puzzle but the pieces are missing, and if you’re apart of it long enough would you please let me finish
There is no blue print for how I would’ve predicted my life to turn out
There is no explaining the reasons that my heart is hurting
There are times when I just want to give up
There are times when I feel stuck
There are times when I feel like I am paralyzed
Those times when I am so afraid
I can’t explore I’d rather just ignore the journey about how I got here
I think I am all alone and wishing for someone to listen
I think that I don’t deserve an ounce of sympathy because I feel I deserve this
I think that my life is a mess, and wonder what more I could’ve done
There are times when I feel like I don’t matter
There are times when I feel like being stuck is better than healing
Other times my head is spinning, and my thoughts become tameless
I try to get to sleep but my mind is racing, 1000 miles per hour
Is it something that I did or something I said that makes me feel like I may wind up dead
Is there anyone who knows, my joys and sorrows and hurts for me when I give up on tomorrows
God will help me remember, what joy is like but right now am I just content to do nothing
God will you guide me to my final destination, and the places in between