I try to understand the pain that I am feeling
A feeling that started with the question does anyone love me
Try to understand what I’m going through, but be thankful that it’s not you
Trying to understand why you don’t
Trying to be real
But terrified to tell others how I feel
How can you be real, if the feelings are just there to hide behind
Trying to understand why people just try to live a life of happiness but in fact the opposite
Try to understand what it’s like to go from expressing emotions to using them as a shield
Try to understand what it’s like to go from 0-60 in a few seconds then back to zero in even less time
Feeling like you’re making progress in your journey, but then looking back keeps you from moving on
Sometimes I don’t want to fix the things that are broken
Sometimes I pretend they don’t exist
Sometimes I lose my sense of reality
There are times when I can’t feel anything
Other times when I do, I try to explain it all away
Trying to hold on to the ones you love, but watching them slip away
Try to understand the brokenness of man, and the healing from the pain