Written when I was feeling really vulnerable. This was because I felt like I let my friends down. Was I there for them when they needed me?
If you had any idea how hard I am trying to give you my time
If you had any indication from my side of trying to give you a portion of my life
If you had any inclination to ignore me, if you knew how much silence stings me
If you had any implications that were conditions of my friendship would you please share
If you had any idea how noisy my mind is when I think I offended someone I care about
If you had any idea how much my friends mean to me, would it change our friendship
I don’t expect you to understand the agony I am in because of my divorce
I don’t expect you to comprehend the trials I wish I could share with you
I don’t know if anything would change if only you tried to understand
I don’t know if my expectations are too high, for us to remain friends with each other
I don’t know if my life as uncomplicated as you think it may or not be
I don’t know if my reaching out is annoying, because it seems to hurt more than silence
If you had any idea what was going on inside my world that seems to others like I am needy
If you had any idea what I am going through, would it change the way you and I interact
I think my heart is breaking and in need of someone to listen
I think my heart is healing but there are some feelings I need to share