So many times I wonder/what would’ve should’ve could’ve been/I tend to forget the struggles/when things are going the way I had imagined/when my life gets tougher/my mind tries to trick me/asking my heart if things were better/when I was younger/
I’m not saying it’s easier/to look ahead instead of back/but while I was trying to think how things were/I am missing the here and now/I didn’t ever have time/nor the energy to let myself dream of the future/when I was stuck in the past/trying to break free/
If it were easy/to express my heart/would you be able to understand/when I tried to tell you/this isn’t how I pictured things/or would you tell me/that my past doesn’t really matter now/the things that were/are not in your life now/sometimes we all struggle/
If it were the same/I would never learn/that being abused is never okay/trying to move on/but every day memories remind me/that wasn’t meant for me/the people who really love me/will let my heart heal/the way that it needs to/some people will judge me/