It’s hard for me to understand what it means to forgive them, the people who want to inflict harm on others,
just because it gives them an adrenaline rush. I know that there is forgiveness, but I just don’t understand the hurt
they must feel. I know there is hope for the worst of people, because I know that I am one of them. I know that the
sacrifice you made is for everyone, but sometimes I try to compare my self to others, and say I am better than that.
I know it’s not the truth, but I am asking you to show me that I don’t deserve anything good. I know that your love is a
gift, for everyone and please help me not to be selfish and keep it to myself. When we don’t forgive we only hurt ourselves,
and where we go wrong is when we start justifying our actions and putting them up against the most heinous crimes against humanity.
I know that I was the reason you had to die, because of sin I am separated from you. I am hopeful for tomorrow, because I have a future.
I am trying to love others that seem too hard to understand. I admit I am not perfect, and I am not any better than the rest.
I just want you to know that I need you to guide me in this journey called life. I am asking you to teach me how to love unconditionally,
even the people who find joy in making my life difficult. Life isn’t always fair, but I know that you will make it right in your timing.
So many times we don’t want to wait, we want to take matters into our own hands and administer our version of justice right away,
but we need to trust you to make every wrong right. The people involved in Columbine, the victims, the gunmen, the families, all are searching for your love.
The people who were involved in planning September 11, all are in need of grace. When I look at them, teach me not to
look at them with anger but with a broken heart, because if I didn’t know you could I be capable of such crimes. We
all want the bad guys to lose, but in your upside down world we need to love them.
I don’t understand why you are using me to communicate your heart, but I feel honored that you have given me a gift.
I don’t have it all figured out but hopefully your words will come to life for people who read them on my website.
All glory goes to you Lord.
Inspired by Tenth Avenue North’s song “Losing” off their album “The struggle”